nEvEr LeT mE gO

2008-06-13T11:42:00.003+08:00

hey ppl..i have decided to write in the combined blog with my bf instead=))if not everything write here, there got nth to write...hahahah! so ya!

for those who dunhave the link...here it is:

www.junhaolovexiufeng.blogspot.com

re-link kk?=D

*loves*

2008-06-12T14:35:00.002+08:00

took this post from belle's blog..=P hope she doesnt mind...hahaha!!wanted to put it here so tt my bf would read!!HAHAHAH!!if a guy is ever like wht is stated here...there is no other reason why a girl should leave him hahah!either she's insane or she isnt worth keeping...=D read on...........

took this from a bulletin.
and i seriously think this is really every gal's dream of an ideal bf..
not talking abt looks here..
hahhaas

Subject: A true boyfriend

Message:

When she walks away from you mad
[ follow her ]

When she stares at your mouth
[ smile...then kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you
[ pull her back and hug her tight ]

When she starts cursing at you
[ say i love you ]

When she's quiet
[ hold her hand and ask what's wrong, if she says nothing, just hug her ]

When she ignores you
[ act cute to make her laugh so she'll notice you ]

When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ tell her you love her and she still
looks amazing ]

When you see her start crying
[hold her...ask her what's wrong, if she stays quiet just hug her until she cools down]

When you see her walking
[ approach her..give a kiss on the
cheek. ]

When she's scared
[assure her you're not goin to leave
her ]

When she lays her head on your
shoulder
[ tilt your head too..and hold her
hand ]

When she steals your favorite hat
[ let her keep it]

When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is
okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she likes you
[ she really does more than you could
understand ]

When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold hers and play with her
fingers ]

When she bumps into you
[ bump into her back and make her
laugh ]

When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]

When you break her heart
[ The pain never really goes away ]

When she says its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if
shes not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and
don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe
it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember
you:
- Called her at 12:00am on her birthday
to tell her you love her

- Called her before you sleep and after
you wake up

- Treated her like she's all that matters
to you.

- Teased her and let her tease you back.

- Stayed up all night with her when she's
sick.

- Watched her favorite movie with her or
her favorite show even if you think its
stupid.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out
with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

- When she runs up at you crying, the
first thing you say is;
"Who's ass should I kick babe?"

heee....belle dun mind i copy and paste...heez=)ur blog's always so interesting!LOL!=D*love ya*

*loves*

2008-06-12T14:03:00.002+08:00

half the week is gone..today's thurs...hmmm..lots of work are yet to be done...dun even have to-do list done yet...anyway went with amanda to ikea yesterday...took lots of pics..decided onsome stuff for the CRM proj..still must organise the furniture and stuff...FPQA was done on tues at my house..now left with FI?AFP?....booo...

dear's sick...high fever...but still has to go work=( he went to see doc today...dunno how also...hope he gets well soon...

my sis is so one-of-a-kind..everything also must go her way...who she think she is..whtever la...so spoilt...cant be bothered with her anymore..how i wish i had sch then dun need to stay home..so sianz...everythingis fine if im alone........with them at home i just dun have peace...maybe they can have the home to themselves while i go out!*whtever*

my maple level is 49!yea!hahah dear say if i help him level up till 70 then he will help me level till 60!yea!haha went for dinner with him on tues...he bought me a pink cotton on top and 2 nail polish...hahaha!miss him lots...hmm...=(

alright gtg do my work...bb

*loves*

2008-06-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

this will be last week's post cos i was so lazy to post it last week..hhaha..

first it started on mon where me n dear were waiting for thurs to come cossss...he took leave on fri!!hahaha then thurs night can go home ma=))

tt was my term test week...i was waiting and hoping time to go faster but i still had to study...hhaha managed to study...did my test and i guess and i hope it's alright..lol..then thurs came=)could nt talk late cos i had test on fri too..and he was soo tired le...so he went to bed first...

on fri he followed me to sch...ha!!first time after such a long long long time!!hahaha so happy!but was a little stress onthe way so like very restless haha..then he waited for me in the canteen till i finished my test...fpqa was like alright iguess...dun even know if i answered correctly but i just wrote whtever i think la...oh well!its over anyway!ha!then went with dear to tampines mall to buy the bookmarks for the girls...then took train to cityhall...ate at cafe cartel...the service was like not horrible..but bad...i cant be bothered..just ate and left...dear wanted to go to the book fair at suntec so followed him...couldnt find his book...guessed they shifted somewhere else...haha but i got a puzzle book!!!haha ahve been doing it for the past few days...and so many kids' books@!!!so cute!!esp allt he fairytale stories..and all the e-learning stuff on the comp...kids nowadays are s lucky...everything's catered to them...hahaha 1/2 the book fair was for kids!LOL!after tt...walked around other stores tt were there...then went to the busstop outside to take bus back to cck...waited for about an hour for 700A!!i had my book and he had his psp so we werent tt bored till we looked at the time and saw how long we waited!!waste time lor!!stupid bus man!!!haiz...in the end...took 502..alighted at imm...went there to buy dinner...then went his house to do the cards for the GB farewell and watched CJ7....the show's nice..althoguht the storyline quite short..but it was so sad when the father died..haiz...yepps...then went home...and on tt ngiht he played maple till liek super late!!!aiyo!!

the next day went to GB farewell inthe mornign at parc vista...haha the food was nice...when it comes to sharing the girls were so shy...haha except for some la...then after awhile they went back to sch le..then i went to church...omg!church was sooo messy!all the renovation and stuff...somemore in the morning rain soooo heavily!then all wet soil or is it sand?...omg....but then put down my bag le then went opp to walk and see if i can buy a balloon for dear....and a cake...but then opp dun have balloon=(no surprise..the cake also so ex!!and lucky i never buy!hahah!cos ju bought it!so nice=))and of course he was super happy!co it was unexpected!hahaha...then after sharing we carried on with our dance prac....revised old steps...learned new steps...so fun!!=Dit has beena mth since we last danced=D

on sunday didnt go to church cos gotta bring my mum to the doc...she is sooo sick...went to doc a few times but it wasnt doc bernard and the other doc keeps saying there is nth wrong with her...but its like obviously there is sth worng with her wht..even her voice changed le...lucky on sun was doc bernard...and lucky she got her medicine and mc for her to rest...she's better now..but her blood pressure is still like irregular...its so scary=( pray for her pls=(it's dear's brithday and i didnt manage to celebrate with him yest...cos i was home..haha!peiqi and the cell celebrated for him le...can hear he's happy too=Dhaha!glad tt he's happy=)may the good Lord bless him..ha!=)

haha!such a long post!!bear with me...i wanna put down all my memories here so i can refer if i were to lose my memory one day or when im old and suffering for dementia...hahaha!at least i have sth to refer to=)

today woke up at about 7.30 to clean up the house cos my frens coming to do project tmr and i gotta do sth about the floor...hahaha and i going out the whole day and i dun wan my mtoher to do it herself...so i have to sacrifice some sleep...so i did it!hahah!went to bathe after tt...then met up with dear=)took bus to ps to catch a movie....was almost late!!hahaha then watched sex and the city...ok la the show...then walked all the way to cine to eat suki sushi...quite alot of ppl ..endless queues...but we still took our own sweet time la...lol..so bad hor...then after tt walked around cine..then went to heeren..then walkd down the street and went to F.O.S..triedsome clothes..then went to this shoe shop..tried on shoes...then went to this fashion...tried clothes again...then went to ps again..outside got sale so walk walk abit..waaaa the things sooo cheap!!earrings are like $1...and belts and necklaces are like 3 for $5...clothes are like $10.00++ but of course..no suitable ones...then went in..walked around...went into DMK...tried shoes..then went to BATA...then went to DMk again and finally bought a pair of sponge slippers...haaha!so comffy=)then tooka train to queensway..went to ikea...the nwly renovated one...ok la...not much diff also..copy ikea tampines one...lol...but ok la...at least the restaurant space bigger lor..but the queue still the same la..long queue lol....ate the laksa..not bad but not hot de...as in burning hot the hot...haha...but oh well..just ate it..then my bro came to pass me my mother's card...then went to walk around....then had an idea...went opp to look for balloon...wanted to buy cake de...but then like he say dun want cake le...then i just go walk around lor..then i thought cannot find le..then i wanted to go off le..then i sawwwwww the florist!!got the balloon!!!hahahaha!!then bought the spongebob one...loland a heartshape stick...hahaha so ex man!!just the balloon and the stick cost like $10.50!!but then its for him...andhis brihday so its fine la...LOL..then he was busy playing his psp so he didnt see me...haha!then when i went there i gave him the balloon then he like just smile smile only...so disappointing=( but oh well...at least he did smile...haiz...didnt have time and budget to plan a ful surprise...haiz...no contacts also...lucky not 21st birthday if not its like so disappointing!=(haiz...im so bad at this....oh well...im sorry=X

haiya,....nvm dun talk about it le..he's going back to camp again...even today he also like never leave work...ppl still calling him and stufff...haiz...gonna miss him so much...dunno how long i can last...ill just try..............

alright...hope i can finish the report tmr...finish earlier the better!!thendun need to worry so much througout the whole hols le...hahaha...alright gtg...

*loves*

2008-06-05T01:11:00.002+08:00

he's back in camp..sleeping by now...

i miss him soo much..cant stop thinking...cant sleep...ifi go sleep ill think..tt's why im like doing work now so ill be super tired then when i lie on my bed ill just sleep and not think...i can be understanding for a short while..but how to be understanding for long?i dunno.....i guess ill just wait and see how la...

anyway got so much work to do during the hols..might as well finish it earlier better...oh well...tmr also no sch...

life sucks....only for now i hope...i know when God made us we were never meant to feel this way..we were suppose to be enjoying this world...and enjoying the thiings we do...but i guess...this isnt happening afterall...we live in a world that is so busy to the extend tt sometimes we cant even hear God...wonder when will all this stop...every individual has his/her timei guess....oh well...im determined to finish all my work soon=D

found out many interestingonline games just now!lol so fun lor!got spongebob sq pants making burger somemore hahaha!alright..tt's all for now...hope i can sleep soon..

*loves*

2008-06-04T11:40:00.002+08:00

yes!im done with another paper...1 step closer to my hols!hahaha....and also 1 step closer to a pile of work yet to be done=.= life is never free from work and stress isnt it...oh well....

haven been meeting dear for close to a week...missing him lots..but its ok..he has his work and i havemine...well iguess thats wht's keeping both of us to not really bother about whether we can meet...which is...i think...a good sign?!hahaha!

dunno if i can pass the ppr..but oh well...again ill just leave everything to God=)this sat is the GB P6 farewell and we haven thought of any games!oopps=X...tinking of playing this pyramid game..u know the one tt was on tv like ages ago??where there are like 2 ppl...facing each other then 1 of them see wht's on the board while the other cant see anyhting...then the person tt cannot see have to guess wht they are acting??lol..i dunno...hahahah..gotta discuss with debra=)

dear is takingleave on fri..maybe following me to sch!sohappy!hahaha...but then after tt maybe he just coming to my house to plpay maple...not going out i guess...hahaha...sunday is his birthday and i have no idea wht to do...i've been like so busy to plan anything...how ar...hmmm...nvm la..i know he wont mind la hor=P oh man!im being such a bad gf...hahaha!

anddd...maple under server maintenance=(( since last ngiht i think...even the website also under construction=( hopethey dun decided to close down the whole game...arghh...

alright...and thank God for helping me in my exams man!he helped me so much in a secret way....hahaha...

*loves*

2008-06-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

lol!guess wht my sis is doing now?haha the youngest one...lol cos dear lend me the ah long pte ltd...then now she holiday so she watched everyday...every morning without fail i wake up she sure watching this show...lol and now she is like reciting the whole show to me...lol!!

today's test was alright...i think?it wasnt to the point though..had trouble answering at first...then thought tt i would fail..thenwhen i came out...discussed with wani abit the my ans almost same as hers...so abit relieved=P at least give me hope...but...aiya...well it's over..idid study and i did do my best...just leave the rest to God la...he will do the rest=))

now is AFP...hope it isnt tt difficult also..hahaha...cant wait for the end of the week..then it's really holiday!=D

k la...gtg le...cya!wish me luck for wed ppr^^

*loves*

2008-06-02T12:02:00.003+08:00

*yawns* im so tired!slept at 12 woke up at 8 this morning just to study for FI...im so tired now...memorizing and stuff...calculations is still like okok only..not tt sure hope it isnt tt difficult a paper...haiz...just hope it willbe over soon...paper is at 4pm..gotta leave home at 2pm..pray for me man..i need it...dunno if i know enough to pass the paper..but im just gonna keep trying....CST peeps...jia you!=D

alrights...gtg...4 more hours...it'll be over soon...............dear's away in camp..miss him so much...oh well...cya!=)

*loves*

2008-05-31T23:20:00.002+08:00

so tired today!slept at 2 plus last night...had terrible stomach ache at 5 plus this morning..dunno why...then slept again till 8...woke up..bathed went to westmall mac to meet dear to study...haha!i thought students would wake up early to go there book place and study but then reachedthere around 9...not many ppl lei...hahah found a cosy corner...oh ya!and westmall mac is super nice now lor!!LOL!!the counter ar...super high tech!hahaha they prepare the burger upstairs right then they will put it on this belt thing then the belt will just keep rotating la...tt means like if u order 1 filet-o-fish then the person on the second floor will prepare the burger then put it on the rotating belt..then the burger will be transported downstairs to the counter...haha!cool right???first time i see this they really make use of their 2 stories hahah!anyway internet cannot use..then dear was like so bored so asked him go buy comic...haha!dunno wt so nice about it but it's his fav..so oh well since he accompany him then just anything la...lol!

ate lunch and studied till about 3..then went over to his house cos he was like so tired and he needs the internet to do his work...so just go lor...when reached slept for about 1 hour++ then started writing notes again while he did his work....then he ordered pizza for dinner...hahah...shared 2 pizzas with his parents...his father so funny!always talkng about government LOL!!then dear was like listeing blur blur like tt hahaha!so funny!=D

finally!finish writing my notes while dear was helping me train my maple char...he played the monster carnival...tt's like so fun lor!HAHA!then he helped me level up!!yeah!!!44 now!!=Djia you!hahaha..now holiday special..got 2x EXP every weekends from 8pm-10pm...cool!sure very fast level uphaha!first time i finished writig my notes!!last time i never did..i always write half way and then get so sick and tired of writing i just stopped lol..but i finished it this time!*pat on my back*now to memorize>.<

term test on monday..FI ppr...then wed AFP then fri FPQA...fri the worse one...dunno how to compile the notes man...hmmm!

tmr still got church...gotta sleep le la...oh ya..dear's birthday coming..duno wht to do for him=(im so bad at this kinda thing..budget also tight...also dunno how to make things...dunno la...even the GB P6 farewell thing also haven prepare lol...the games and small farewell gifts..maybe ill drop by ikea one of this days to take a look...haha maybe buy them a bib lol!!oh man!*mad*

anyway dear's gonna be so busy=(no time for me anymore...every day he has to stay in camp...only come out on fri night=( but nvm la!just bear with it..ill get use to it haahah!=D love ya lots n lots n lots dear!=)*muackz*

*loveS*

2008-05-28T21:26:00.003+08:00

today is the worst day in my life!!im glad its over! did my FI report last night till this morning 1 plus am...then i was saving and doing and then suddenly it was saved under temp file and i dunno wht in the world is wrong with me..i decided to just close it and open it again and guess wht??THE FILE WAS GONE!!wth!!i was so freaked out i called dear and cry...cos i didnt know wht to do..then he was in camp had to sleep early cos today he got test...then i had no choice let him go sleep...then i was so scared i didnt know wht to do and everything i was like lost! then i just decided to do it allover again=(its alot of info!!=( i was so not motivated to do my work...lucky amanda was there to keep me company...i had her tot alk to whihc made me feel much better and not so alone=))thank God for her! i prayed before i started work and with God's grace i finished my work!!yeah!!at 5.45=.= exactly 4 hours of continuous work..ha!was soooo tired!went to sleep for an hour then had to go sch le=( feel soooo sleepy the whole day..my eyes were heavy..andi had lab today lucky it was a short and easy one..buti think i gonna get 0 for my post lab...i dunno how to do=( then had fpqa meeting...so lost...so many books but of no help...haiz...cream puff is a horrible food to do research on!=( now emi still trying to find the fpqa stuff haiz....

tmr got AFP project consultation....haven done the task analysis...but do the research first lol...its so rush we not even prepared for the consultation to begin with...hmmm..but nvm la...=D

during L&C lect...i was like dozing off!lucky the lecture was short hahah!slept in the bus...then must keep waking up cos i sit outside then ppl keep going in to sit and coming out to alight....then the ppl behind talk so loud...hmmm..but at least i still get to sleep while la...haha...

anyway wanna share this video...sooooo cute!!!my mother showed it to me!its sooo cute right??!hahaha she say until got tune and tempo somemore...hahaha!enjoy!~

*loves*

2008-05-25T20:12:00.003+08:00

i hate it when ppl reminds me of my size...to many ppl fat is wrong and ugly!the world thinks everyone has to be thin to be well-liked by others!but i beg to differ alright!fat isnt ugly!not all fat ppl are ugly!take lydia sum for example..she is fat but so wht she lives her life her way and makes ppl happy..when she dies..she is remembered by millions...how bout say...queen latifah??huh??isnt she just huge but amazing in her own way?has style and confidence?wht's wrong with being fat??fat doesnt mean anything!it just means unhealthy?!?am i RIGHT or WRONG??yea im fat!but so wht...ya i made a mistake but cant i have time?im so irritated with ppl who constantly just reminds me of it...it's just sick!it is of no help but on the other hand just pulls my self-esteem down...ppl maybe joking but c'mon think of other's feelings when u joke...sometimes it may be a laughing matter to u but not to another?!u may say im petty..i dun care alright!WHATEVER!

freaking FI report is getting on my nerves!technical report?wth!do i have to do tt in sec sch??NO!doing this is no fun at all...no where to start and no where to end!wht a bother!

FPQA is another crap!research and research and research and in the end we deduce and conclude ourselves..wht crap!teacher doesnt even tell us if we r right or wrong..she just gives crap replies when we ask her qns...and u noe wht??we r tested on whtever tt we researched...and ya!how do we know if whtever tt we or our classmates' research are right??no we dont!we just study aimlessly and hope to pass!*roll eyes*

u noe wht?right now i just dun see anything i fron of me!just a yr of NIE and 5 yrs of teaching bond!sometimes i just ask myself did i even get into the right course??is it really wht i wanted in the first place...im afraid not...the sch's far i have totravel till thy kingdom come before i reach home...and hw is so freaking difficult!i just have to console myself tt i LOVE travelling so i can make it through tt 3 yrs taking bus to sch!i once thoguht tt my next goal was to get into the uni course for CST students...but wht are the chances??0.000000000000001% or maybe less than tt or maybe even 0! so wht's the point...i dun see the point and when im out from there..ya a certificate and then wht...another extra 2 yrs bond which makes it 7 yrs bonded to sth which im not really keen on!

ya!im being childish!im complaining and complaining and not using my big brains tothink of wht to do next and how to think on the positive side..but wht positive side isthere??stable job??is tt wht singaporean's life is all about??money?job?i wanna do sth tt i like!but im stuck!is it wrong listening to my mother?i dun wan to say its wrong but just tt maybe whtever tt i like to her it might not be the best choice...from sec sch till now it has always been the case..im indecisive!my mum decides for me and i let her!i listened to her!and im always stuck with things im not comfortable with..things i dun like!when do i get to do the things i like?never i guess....in life...nth goes ur way.

im breaking apart!things around me are breaking me apart..my family isnt helping!all tt i wrote in my previous post are fake!its just to make myself feel better...they are all fake!im pathetic and im living my life the pathetic way..till when? i dunno..and i dun wish to know.*cries*

dun leave comments about this post...dun tag about this post...its just whtever in me..i just wanna write and forget about it.if ppl out there who reads and change their impression of me i cant help it...but just dun ask me anything about anything here.just read (if u want) and shhhhhh............

p/s:Lord im desperate! pull me out of this mess and give me a chance.and...lastly....give me faithfulness.

*loves*

2008-05-23T19:12:00.004+08:00

omg!my left side of my headhas been hurting since morning..now its worse...i sleep already..bathe already..drink lots of water already still so painful!oh man!=(

anyway today is quite a short day...no fpqa lect..thank God if not have to go sch at 8?! then fpqa tutorial was together with FI tutorial so ended school at 1 today=D ahhaha reached home at around 2.30...weather is soooooooo hot man!!the heat is killing me!!

anyway yesterday had AFP lab...hahaha did experiment on the different types of roux sauces...there's ermm...light,medium and heavy sauces....roux sauce are actually used to make soups?or macaroni cheesE?super ncie...some groups made cream of mushroom...some made cream of broccoli...some made macaroni cheese..me group made macaroni cheese and its so nice!!i mean after i added more salt n pepper at the last part hahahah!so obviously u shld know the macaroni turn out tasteless at first hahaha...here are the few pics la=P

cream of broccoli soup...the taste is great!reminds me of ikea's cream of broccoli soup too haha..

my group's macaroni cheese...the colour is nice!lol..inside wwas a little liquid but its nice!hahah

cream of mushroom soup...my favourite!!hahaha and its so niceee!!!better than the can one...this one no preservatives!hahah

yani's macaroni cheese...oh man!!their presentation is soooo good...u see the spoon at the side?guess wht it's made of?(ans below) and their macaroni sauce is slightly green cause they blended the coriander together with the sauce..heard tt they didnt even put salt of anything and the taste is there...new recipe huh??hahaha=)creative ppl=P

oh ya..of course we didnt prepare this..but just a random pic..cos me n emi was eating the chicken rice set meal today..and why is it speical??cos its our last yr in school..and 3/4 of the time we ate at flavours,...and this is our very first time eating the school's chciken rice...hahaha!i know its lame but ya..lol

every thurs..can save moeny jsut eat the food we cook can le...hahaha...so full man..everytime still got leftover somemore lol...

anyway term test is coming=( 3 subjects to sit for..well not counting crm next tues...hmmm...not only tt during term break still got projects to complete...>.<

today some ppl are just beingplain irresponsible...got a role but doesnt play it well...so wht's the use...whtever la...its none of my business anyway...selfish and irresponsible ppl arent worth the discussion!

anw i know im mean today...sorry hilyah for today..i know u have already taken the initiative and isnt much of ur fault or responsibility in the first place....hmmm so...just wanna apologise....was just being mean=P *sorry*

alright...tt's it...oh ya!leveled up today!!!level 39 now on the way to 40...yes!finally can see the "4" after so long!hahaha!and 1 last thing..u know wht the spoon in the secondlast pic made of?? ans::::::CELERY!hahahah!mdm kalpana carved it...unbelievable!=D
p/s: Thank God for the short day today, the time for me to sleep and for giving me frens tt always makes me happy=D

*loves*

2008-05-21T11:06:00.002+08:00

haiz...actually i expected this anyway...i failed my BTT....this is so bad...lucky darling was there with me...i know this sounds so emo but i cried lor..dunno why also...the thought tt my mother would be disappointed just makes me cry...

went for dinner with darling...then he was consoling me n stuff...i guess he's right...there are also other ppl who keep failing wht....and its better to fail my test than when i start driving and then keep getting into accident la...maybe im just not ready..but of course this isnt an excuse...as expected..my next booking would be 2 mths later...july...haiz...

on the way home was thinking about wht my parents will say but when i reached home whtever they said was so unexpected....this is wht they said..

xy was at the door...

xy: HI JIE!!

mum: so how?fail ar?

me: ya lor....

mum: see la see la...(cos she knew i studied last min)

me: theni say a whole lot of rubbish which is quite redundant here...

dad: nvm la..now u learn and find out=D thenhow's the insurance presentation?
blablabla~~

tt's the part about the driving one...they were encouraging instead of disappointed.which makes me feel so bad=(...thank God for my parents...they have always been encouraging and leaving me to be independent since i started poly...maybe just some occasional reminder about studying hard....i just love them sooo much and i never wnna lose them=(

thanks darling for the encouragement and consolation...sorry to spoil the dinner hahaha....anyway thanks so much for the blog skin..although i dun really like brown...hahah but its ok=)) the combined blog also so nice!!!tt's nicer lol!=P

anyway tues was a long day but with God's grace it actually ended quite quickly...only managed to sleep at 2 on mon cos of so much work...didnt even finish some....

then woke up at 6 on tues morning to go school...had CRM presentation..and everything went quite well...(thank God for tt)...and then CRM ended late...then had to rush for FI lecture...lucky its only 1 hour or i might just fall asleep..lol...then supposedly tt was the end of the day...butttttt..there's always a but to everything...but i had CDS...and FPQA project...so went for break..then went library project room...searched for some books but not many were relevant...haiz..i guessed im just too slow...actually up till now i dun even know wht im supose to research for...but ill just find out i think i ask too many qns le..also hard for them to explain to me..oh well....sorry guys...

then after researching awhile..had to go cfor CDS le...haiz..it just sucks being alone in tt class...as in cos all my other classmates are in another class...but well..not too bad la...then suppose to decide theleader one...then they decide le then tell me....wth..then ok lor...just wanna get this over n done with anyway...CDS isnt much of an importance to me anyway...as long as i get a decent grade...handed up my proposal...no hw!yes!hahah...

after cds..lucky it ended early if not i would have been late for my test...reached the drving centre on time...took the test till 8.30...and ya...failed....tt's just too bad!sad of course..but its already done......msg amanda she also dun wanna reply me...ok lor...

then ya as i said went for dinner..and tt's the end of the day...quite fast la..and today no school!!!yeah!!!hahahah....waited for this day since the end of mon hahaha!im such a slacker always waiting for days with no school...lol

talked to jon last night...for those who's wondering...yes he's jonathan tang...he wanted to ask me bring his gf to church and he's not gonna be there=.= how??i dun even know his gf..if i did i dun mind but i never even see her before..isnt it weird??and he said he got yoga lessons so cannot go...then im like huh then how..feel bad to reject but if he's not there its just gonna be weird..and this sunday we are doing kids church so its different u see...feel so bad rejecting her...maybei shldnt in the first place...i dunno la....hmm...talked to him quite abit...glad tt we still keep in contact once in awhile la=D

alrights...gtg now...oh ya suddenly i got the urge to play maple again...hahaha but oh well..work first...not looking forward to tmr haiz...

*loveS*

2008-05-19T09:29:00.003+08:00

it's vesak day!!actually its a wasted holiday for me...cos i didnt have classes on mondays in the first place=( lol!but well...extra day for me to do my work!really packed day...mostly research...hmmm

watched world trade centre part 1 last night...oh my goodness..it justt took so long to load!!=.= but well..not bad a show..watching part 2 later...didnt have a choice..have to do my movie proposal..haiz...

wed no school!!!hahaha!no labs!!hyeah!!lol...oh ya today have to study for my BTT also..dun wanna fail...

cant wait for holidays to come..belle have been asking me to go out with her...feel so bad canot go out with her..missed her lots!haha...still owe her a pulau ubin trip hahaha!=D

well..hope everything is according to plan today then i can finish my work hahaha!gtg...enjoy ur vesak day ppl!=D

*loveS*

2008-05-17T12:37:00.002+08:00

lucky today no dance..if not my whole day is gone then i have to rush my work tmr...not tt i dun like dance...but just tt im just super busy...hmmm...afterall i dun have a choice but to put my work first...

CRM-->
- quiz
- e-lecture
- insurance report and presentation

FI-->
- log book for prac 2
- techinical report for prac 2 part 1

AFP-->
- equipment list for prac 1

FPQA-->
- research on "irradiation and microwaves", and some temp thing from package 1.2

L&C-->
- watch a movie and do up a movie proposal

Driving-->
- BTT

all this i have to do by next tues...AFP by thurs and FI by next wed...thank God for public holidays....it may seem little but its actually alot ok!

now the insurance thing got big problem...as much as insurance is good for u...it is troublesome!haiz...i dunno how alreadyla...just hope everything turns out well...

i feel tt i have neglected dear recently...i seem to have so much work..we dun even have much time to talk to each other..even if we meet up its like 1 hour plus 2 hours?not more than tt....at night he has to sleep early and i have to compromise...im like so bad...haiz..he so emo lately...feel so sad...i dun like him to be emo cos its notlike him to be like tt...haiz i really dunno la..

hope i can finish everything by today then tmr i can do other stuff...many other things to write..but forget it...

*loveS*

2008-05-15T21:37:00.007+08:00

today's AFP prac was super fun!!hahaha ok...we were split into 10 groups of 2..and each group has 3 dishes to prepare including the oat recipe tt we researched on last week..i partnered emillia..she's funny!hahahi keep bugging her on how to decorate the food!LOL!hmm..there was..fried noodles, fried rice, sushi, chicken nasi briyani, corn bran muffin, corn bread, corn soup, marcaroni cheese, ondeh ondeh, lemon barley drink...me n emillia cooked sushi, chicken nasi briyani and corn bread...then at the end we all laid it on the middle front table...then got debrief...then everyone waas like tasting each other's food...hahaha it was so fun!!everyone was like so full!!and so much left overs..lol oh and for our oat recipe...its oat crumb quiche i think hahah...it wasnt cook in the end lol...me, emillia and amanda did it...well actually just the both of them...cos i was busy washing up the other table..lol!!here are the pics..lol..we really had fun!!and 5 hours of prac not 4...hahaha!and had lect later at 3..tiring day!=P

this 3 dishes were done by me n emi....

this is the sushi..the rice was so plain lol not enough vinegar i guess...then mdm kalpana said tt we shld add the vinegar, salt and sugar after the rice is cooked if not allthis ingredients will form a layer over the rice grains stopping the water from entering the rice then the rice wont swell and rupture then it wont be sticky anymore...aha!just wrote this here..in case i forgotten wht she said then can refer here hahaha!

this is the corn bread...it looks so unappealing hahaha it wasnt nice..or rather i dint like it la..emi liked it thought haha..the orange was there cos the whole thing was so plain didnt know wht to put..and the watery thing at the side is not orangejuice!hahah its the honey...lol..and the white thing on the bread is icing sugar...oh ya and when plating always do it in odd numbers..like 3,5,7 pieces?yepps..

the last dish was chicken nasi briyani...hahha it ended up so little cos 1/4 of the rice was stuck to the bottom of the pan lol..teacher said sth wrong with the pan!LOL!but yea...too much garnish...usually garnishing shld be focused only on 1 side of the plate so tt it wont look so crowded

here are some pics on how mdm kalpana did her plating..its nice but not filling lol..but usually only restaurants serve like tt and its ex!i wont pay for this lol...cos u not paying for the food but for the effort tt the chef put in=.= im poorr..

this is actually hana group's oat recipe...they got no recipe actually they just did this themselves...pro..haha!but it taste super nice!LOL!!very xiang lor..hahaha...the plating was done by mdm kalpana..

someone's sushi...plating also done by mdm kalpana...plain, simpla but class right??hahaha

someone's ondeh ondeh also..its orange cos of the sweet potato...nice colour right..i like the colour..sth diff rather then the normal green ones..haha..

next up...nurul group's presentation...the way her group presents is great!hahah just tt..some were over garnished..but they are like experts!HAHAH!!check it out...

this is the corn bran muffin ar...yepps..the heart shape soo nice right??and the icing sugar makes it so appealing right!hahah..like high class muffins...lol

this was their sushi...the little california handroll in the centre is so cute!!LOL!

this is their macaroni cheese...colourful..interesting shape and presentation...=D

ohhhh this one u must see!!!...its yani group's macaroni cheese!its just so nice!!its like a building with trees beside hahaha...

cool right???hahahha its amazing how creative my class can get...lol...everyone is diff and special in their unique way and if u didnt realize...we all used the same ingredients but came up ith diff designs...hahaha...fun!=D

overview of all our products!~

*loveS*

2008-05-15T00:07:00.002+08:00

well done to my fpqa group=D although presentation was a little long but we did well right??hahaha claire was right..we will do well=D hahaha!yeah!!motivation for package 1.2...jia you!!=)

for FI prac..i misread the qn and almost screwed it up..haiz...im so so sorry hana and amanda=( oh ya!and today's hana's birthday!HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANA! hahaha sang her a birthday song with some of my other classmates in front of the lift...lol..so fun!

met dear at lot 1 today to eat dinner and buy ingredients for AFP tmr...lucky i found it...phew..hope tmr is a success!yeah!hahah....but today he dress so maturely!!i mean soooo maturely...i dunno how to describe but ya....but i kinda like it...lol!haha didnt get to talk to him though cos was listening to my father going through the insurance quotation...my father is so great!LOL!being an insurance agent is so tough!so many things must remember and understand and all the figures...hard to get it in overnight but ill try...ha!thanks dad!=D

haiz...im tried but not really ttired...but also not really not tired..haiya...just a little tired i guess....just living each day as it comes la...hahaha..good wht not so stress...haha fri got fpqa quiz...next tues got BTT...oopps=X

cant wait for term break at least can rest awhile...hmmm...i hope...lol...2-3 more weeks!!

my life is boring!revolving around sch,bus,home,comp and then sch,bus,home,comp and still sch,bus,home,comp.........etc.....no life.

*i pray for strength and confidence to live each day*

p/s:dear i miss you!=(

*loveS*

2008-05-10T21:20:00.002+08:00

today's a little waste of time...met darling in train...went to yio chu kang to meet his fren to get the psp...went to ang mo kio...wanted to look at things att he cash converter...nth onelor and everything inside is like???so disgusting!!how to buy?!?its like for my new house??haiz...then saw this sign $2.90 onwards jap food...went in to eat...he ordered katsudon i ordered curry udon....then side dish=scallop,pregnant fish and jap dumpling...ok la not bad...the curry udon soooo salty!!the katsudon nicer so we exchanged and he said not salty at all=.= his taste bud sth wrong...die!LOL

after tt went over to ikea tampines...oh man...by the time we reach there so late le..by the time i write allmy stuff properly already super late le..so went there never even walked around then went off le..andlucky i went off...cos i only reached home at around 6.30...still had to go grandma house...

went to grandma house then mum bought a heart shaped cake to celebrate mother's day...the cakeis nice!hahah...dad didnt go..not feeling well after yesterday....

now i have to organize my thoughts and start work!

*comparison is a torture!ignorance is bliss!~*

*loves*

2008-05-10T10:00:00.010+08:00

yozzz ppl!yest was so fun!!hahah the whole day all of us were waiting for the seoul garden in the noon...first time i took a bus with so many classmates...hahah!so fun
!!its like an outing!LOL!mrs viji came along too^^ hahaha..

anyway when we reached the entrance of seoul garden(tm) we were suppose to draw lots and see where we were supposed to sit...

i got table 4 and on my table there was, claire, jessica, and reini=D

after everything..we started eating..taking the food and stuff...the thing keep spitting oil onto us...lol!it made 1 super distinct dot on my head...and claire's hand also...lol..so painful! some pics while they were eating^^

my table=D

that's claire's chopstick..lol!

the other table's at the otherside...enjoying themselves=Dhaha!

my table on this side..lesser ppl cos i likes sitting down and taking pic..=P

then after tt half way when eating...hana went around takingpics with everyone...then i also copy her after she finish...lol!!go around disturbing ppl when they eating hahahh...here are alllll the pics!!=D of course with my face inside..hee^^enjoy~!

hilyah and hana^^

claire,jess,hana^^

me, pris and emi!!it was soo long since the were the 3 of us in the pic...or rather this is the first time we ever took a pic together!!hahah!cool!for those who dunno...we knew each other since the first day of orientation and were together till now..there were thick and thin but we went through it together..nice bunch of frens^^*treasured*

mrs viji (care person) and fattasha^^

hana and hilyah (this time with me) hahah!^^

claire,jess,hana^^(hana is like everywhere!LOL!so funy!)

charmaine,ika,reini...the back one on ur right dun need say already la hor..u shld know..its hana!LOL!!

farah and nurul^^

yani and amanda^^(both of them are super nice frens of mine..always there when im down=)thanks girls!=)including lee kuan of course..ill post her pic up...look out for her..haha

zul and elizabeth(hahaha he's the rose among the thorns...lol)

eliz and lee kuan...there leekuan is here!!haha she's the one i've been talking about tt has been on the director's list...smart girl!haha!sorry i keep talking about it...to me..tt's a big thing ok...hahah!=D

clarie,jess,hilyah(maybe u will see repeats of some ppl's faces..tt's cos im posting everything up!hahahah!continue viewing)=P

zuzi,novia,charmaine^^

wani and nur...lol..wani is another joker...hahaha this is wht she said when all of us were going around taking pics...

other ppl:wani!let's take pics

wani: ehh,can u all let me eat in peace...no paparazzi ar...pls...LOL!!

and then she was laughing and smiling...lol!she's super funny!ad if im not wrong she still loves parishilton lol!fun girl!=D

me n lee kuan!!sweet eh...hahaha!=)cute little girl hahaha

everyone on the other table^^a little small and smoky haha..

ermmm...we couldnt finish..and thoguht we would be charged for wastage(which in the end didnt la) then jess placed all this on the hotplate and let it burn...lol!!and it became like tt...lol!!

the end product of our mail...lol...a few ppl left at a time...then in the end left me,pris,amanda,lee kuan,yani...we continued chatting for awhile then we left about 5 plus..this outing is sooo funn!!i wish we had time for more of this=D
oh ya this is the empty table...lol!so messy!HAHA!=P

after the seoul garden thing...the 5 of us needed to do project or rather it's me,amanda,yani and lee kuan...then we asked pris to come along...and on the way amanda and pris did sth!!s bad!!LOL...

the rose on pris's hair...was stolen!!LOL!pris dared me to take the rose..but i didnt want to then amanda went to take it!!LOl...2 some more!!omg!!and u know wht tt rose is for..is u know those newly opened shops got all these flowers sent by ppl or companies to congratualate them on their opening...lol ya tt's fromthere...and after tt wehn we were walking arouind before going home..they took about 4-5 more daisies...lol!!crazy ppl lor both of them..lol..

posing for the camera....hahahaha!

woahhh..tt marks the end of my day....yeah!so funnn!!!the time spent together was great!so great!hahaha...anyway later i gtg do projects...oh man...it never feels like the end of the week although it IS the end of the week...and before i know it the week starts again...hmmmmm...oh well...

anyway!wanna thank the social reps( fattasha,pris and nur)of my class for planning this seoul garden thing!it was fun and memorable!plan some more kk?hahah!Thank God for the time tt i can spent together with my frens!*treasured*

*loves*

2008-05-08T20:50:00.002+08:00

so many things happening at a time....so messy...so confusing..so complicating!!so many projects to complete!counted..about 5 for the next 2 mths...3 datelines in july=( tt's not very long from now...

got scolded from mdm kalpana today during AFP today...hmmm...well...she scold cos she cares=P oh well...

dad went to see the doc today...got another lump on his thigh..tmr going to mount E to see doctor..then might have to go for surgery to take out the pus...mum said he might be staying in...not sure yet=( Pray everything is fine=(

today on the bus 66 as usual...everyone squeezing here and there..and tt indian lady was there again=.=so irritating!!(not racist la..just tt particular woman) gets on my nerves every morning...then already no space...keep moving and moving...just cos wanna get a sit...pls lor..no space then no space la...must squeeze one meh...its obvious..every morning also no space to sit one wht...my goodness!=.=

someone talked to belle on msn today(shant name who)well if tt person reads she shld know...asked to meet her again...to cut short the story..belle asked where..and she said clarke quey...which was where i experienced the same thing...must be tt stupid company enyouth again la...or rather another company...whtever it is..belle didnt wanna reply her anymore cos i told her wht happened..then this person called her lor...then keep asking..wth!this ppl are like so fake can..so realistic!wht wanna meet up..come on lor..she doesnt even know tt belle was in the same school with her for 4 yrs..and now trying to act like very close to her and trying to act like wanna catch up...pls la..wak eup ur idea...not everyone is so gullible can...wht kind of frenship is this??so fake!!dun wan also no big deal....and ppl dun wan then dun wan la...keep forcing for wht...thick skin lor!

tmr still got class gathering at seoul garden..no money already la!already struggling to keep up with my expenses lor and my c somemore make it compulsory!...haven even buy my leadership tb..and the recipe book...the super thick one...and i haven even pay for my phone bill and also still got 2 weeks of sschool to tide through...im super dead la!!darling's birthday and mum's birthday is next mth...mother's day is like this weekend??!?!?wht's happening to my life la!all so screwed up!money also like tt!school also like tt!project also like tt!

sorry for the emo stuff...just so agitated nowadays and so messed up...i need to organise but have no idea where to start...im soooo lost in my own messed up life=(

gtg do work nowwwww!!

bb

*loves*

2008-05-07T23:40:00.003+08:00

oh man!!!had a super busy day today!!first FPQA tut for 2h..then 6 hours of lab straight...from FI to FPQA=.=...and the lab is like so tiring!!must rush here and there cos no time...for FI la...and then learn the calculation...so hard to understand!!too long never do maths le i think..but in the end still ok la...hahaha we make some sauce...like tomato sauce like tt but got garlic powder and black pepper powder..but its nice lor..hahaha my group one super sour!!LOL...those ppl taste le give funny faces!!so funny!!!LOL!!=DFPQA lab was alright..just tt already so tired le...then suppose to do spread plate we do streak plate..hahah!!i think its my fault!lol cos i was the one tt put the streak there then they happily use LOL!!!paiseh eh...my fault=Psorry=Pbut overall alright la..finised 1 h earlier went to library borrow soooooo many books..all hardcover and some so thick somemore!!cannot reserve so must bring back home!!oh man..my bag already so heavy!!after tt still must go lecture but of course made it back home la..if not i wont be wrting this haha!

went for dinner with ddarling at lot 1...at fried rice,3 pieces of sushi...then went down to mac...drank half cup of caramel frappe...oh man..i dun drink coffee but then he went to buy coffee=.=then bought 1 packet of fries...left at about 10.20pm..reached home at 10.45pm...fast eh?lucky we stay near each other if not we will have even lesser time to meet..haha!thank God!=D

alright gtg now...

*loves*

***my patience is running thin, Lord teach me how to love the unlovable***

2008-05-06T21:02:00.033+08:00

phew~presentation is over for the first project...i totally screwed it up...i didnt even follow the paper when i talked and i messed up everything..missed some of the points and stuff=( but luckily God answered my prayer which helped me alot!1=D i wasnt really sure about how to start off the whole presentation...i have been praying and nth seems to come to my mind..until last min..when i was listening to my other classmates then suddenly a thought struck me...like i could act as a mother and stuff to present...so ill start off like tt...and it did helped me alot!=DThank God!its amazing how he actually works!and yes!he works fast!its just a matter of seconds hahaha...

dunno why today felt so sianz...its like as if life had no aim and purpose...i feel so lifeless and like...dead....i feel so lethargic and no motivation to do any other things..i just stoned in the bus on the way home...hmmmm...but oh well...shant think about today....tmr is a brand new day and i hope things turns out better....

anywayyyyyy...hahaha!!!didnt post yest and it was a super good day yesterday!!!i went to the ZOO!!!!yeah!!hhahaha i was at home in the morning..was like so excited over it..met darling at cck mrt station at 1.40pm...he was late!=Pthen bought bread and honey wheat grass drink for lunch..the drink so nice!!i think im like addicted to it haha!!yepps...then took 927 to the zooo!!!took about half an hour..fast hor?lol..all the while i thought zoo was like in the desserted area where its so hard to reach lol!=D seriously the zoo is super fun!!!its not tt i never go to the zoo before...but going with family and bf is diff wht..lol...and the animals were really cute!!most of them were like super active!LOL!so funnny!!here are the pics and videos...but the videos super blur..phone resolution not good for taking video=(so wasted!the animal show was so nice!!but wellill just post it up...enjoy~!

WELCOME TO THE SINGAPORE ZOO!!=D

tickets are at $16.50/pax but if with unlimited tram ride would be $21.50..we bought the $21.50 ones...

the asian-clawed otter...omg!they are like so cutee!!when they see ppl they all lined up and let us take pics!LOL!!dar said they are falling in!LOL!

this is the pygmy hippo!haha the butt belongs to the adult one and the head is the baby one...the baby hippo just keeps following the adult hippo and they just keep going round and round and round..and they dun swim...they kinda bounce..LOL!

kangaroos!=Dthe last time i came this part was still under renovation haha...and some of the kangaroos are like lying down..lol...lazy bums!haha!

its drinking water...and the way it hop towards the water is so funny..haha its like its going to fall..lol!but cute!=D

babooon!!haha reminds me of justin yip..not cos he looks like one..but he was the one who started givng me this nick name wheni was in sec sch=.= so lame..and i carried this nick fr the rest of my 4 yrs in school...lol!

penguins!!they are like so cute!!the way they walk look so clumsy..reminds me of my facebook pet...pingu!hahah!

oh man!i tell u this sealion is a genius man!!lol!it's name is seth if im not wrong haha...so nice!=D

orang utans!!too bad ah meng not there anymore=(didnt get to see it one last time=( but its ok the others are cute too!=D

this 2 cheeky fellows are fighting...lol!!the bigger one used a sack to cover his head and rolled down the hill!and the smaller one follow...lol...then they start to fight..for quite awhile..lol!!reminds me of humans lol!=Dthey are like humans to begin with haha...

doing their dental check-up...hahah no la...the zookeeper did tt just for fun cos the orangutan smiled at him lol!

all ready for their daily snack...fruits and vegetables!=Dhealthy monkeys arent they=)

the more common ones like zebras...well zebras are known as the land animal that has the most distinctive body pattern...if im not wrong heez....

the giraffe!known as the tallest land animal!=) poor thing..i think they never got a chance to sit down..lol

lions!*ROAR*...only 1 male and 3 females...wht happen to the males??hahah anyway lions are known as the animal that is the most distinct between the male and the female=D

elephant rides..didnt get to sit on them though...abit ex la..hahah..anyway ill sit on it next time when i got more money hahaha..oh...there's also the horse carriage ride..hahah..waa sit on top like princess haha..

polar bears!or rather polar bear without the "s"...so poor thing...wonder wht happend to the others...lol..anyway besides dolphin and penguins i love polar bears too...cos they are big,furry and white!haha!*purity*poor thing lei..weather so hot!but the way he lie down so cute!LOL!=D

below are some videos tt i took..resolution not tt good bear with it..but its interesting hahah!enjoy~!

the genius sea lion named seth...so cute!!=D

that's the end of my zooo tripp...i enjoyed myself soooooo much!!hope dar enjoyed himself too=D thank God for the good weather and the enjoyable time=))
p/s: some technical problem...cant seem to upload the elephants and the otters ones...ill try again another time...stay tuned=Dhaha!

anyway last but not least wanna congratulate KHOO LEE KUAN for being on the director's list!!!let's give her a round of applause!!!*claps claps claps*yeah!!!hahaha congrats!!=Dits a once in a life time thing and she did it!!yeah!!!=D

alrights..longgggg post...gotta go sleep now...nitez^^

*loves*

2008-05-04T20:15:00.002+08:00

went to church today..didnt eat in church cos tere's lunch at home...went through genesis during cell...the weather sooooo hot!!!haiyo!!

went home...ate lunch..played game...sleep...wake up do my CRM till now..my brain is kinda dead..cant really think but gonna finish le...heez^^

yeahh!!tmr me n darling going to the zooo!!finally!!=D dunno if it's gonna be fun but i hope so la..hahaha dun think wil have alot of ppl...its a school day afterall..at most only tourist hahah...hope it doesnt rain to..if not like so sian...haha!=Dso excited!looking forward to tmr=D

so sianz today..not a good day..shant elaborate more...anyway i've come to terms with it...it's no use trying so hard..sometimes it's just meant to be tt way...waste my energy.....in the beginning i thought it was working..but afterall...hmmm maybe not..oh well...maybe it's just me...whtever la...trying not to be bothered by it anymore...

and...1 qn i always have in my mind...can sacrifices be counted?are there such things as too many sacrifices??i dunno.....it's just so not fair wheni think about it sometimes...oh whtever!just let it be...........shant elaborate more too....

BTT coming...20th may..if i fail..good luck to me!i have to wait another month...and tt's LONG!!pray i can pass....

still not really done with my CRM project and there's still FPQA research...hmmm...many things are starting to come...hope i can at least enjoy myself tmr without having to think about anything tmr.....

alrights...gtg...

*loves*

2008-05-04T00:29:00.003+08:00

heez~just a short post today...

went to aunt beng lay house in the morning for a meeting...saw aunt susan's son!!oh man!!sooo cute!coming to 4 this yr..haha adorable boy!=P

then met darling at westmall...ate at the food court...i ate jap food he ate porridge....at ice kachang again!dunno wht's with us and ice kachang this days...ha!then took a bus to church...the bus quite fast la...

then had dance...larnt new steps...woahhh!the steps are like...sooo difficult!oh man!LOL!but jia you alaz!!we can do it!=D

after dance..went for Q at chinatown...weird right?haha but fun!ppl present...alexis,mervyn,clifford,me and chairs....went to this cafe called "global sounds"...oh man the music is like sooo loud!ordered" emerald mint" not bad la...quite nice..hahha clifford say like drinking medicated oil!LOL! then played this game called...er.."citidale"??er...kinda forgot the name..but got all those merchant, king, magician...blablabla...so fun!!hahaha=D then did some reflections on Q...and went home...they took a cab..but i took bus...dun waste money=Pcos i wanna go zoo!=P but the bus stop also not very far away la..haha anyway chinatown is a not bad place la...got quite alot of things if we really walk lor...andddd..merv brought us to "zhen zhu fang" this very old building...and we went all the way up to the 30th floor...it was windy..the view's nice...but when we went up to ard 31/32 floor...the living condition is like...so bad....the corridor is soo long...laundry is everywhere...rooms so small...allthe wires coming out fromt he walls..and merv said..upstairs..there are like 8 ppl sleepingin 1 room..is like olden times and i realized how fortunate we are....hmm...but seriously i thought this kind of places neevr existed in singapore anymore....Oooo....oh well...i shall be contented with wht i have and thank God!=P

oh and rewind abit..for dinner....we used our own money to order food and we all share..hahaha clifford ordered hokkien mee, alexis=xiao long bao,merv-soup, me-the chinese rojak with beehoon?lol....and merv paid for the sugar cane as well...fun!sth new...hahaha...

alright time to go...errr...the entry isnt tt short afterall...hahahahha!pics up another time...just a few la...

*loves*

2008-05-02T23:11:00.002+08:00

booo!!!heez=P today is such a great day!!

actually it all started last night...he was in a bad mood..then we kinda quarrelled....until this morning i also never msg him...then he msg-ed me say he is on half day leave....then ask whether wanna meet...and my school so happen ends at 1pm(yeah!) haha...then i just reluctantly said ok la..anyway haven gotten over last night...then we met at cityhall....he was late!!!cos his train broke down...oh well!

went to marina sq...walked around to find food for lunch...the situation was awkward...then he hold my hand and said sorry...for last night...(awww... so sweeeet)..then i couldnt help it but smile...lol..whtever right...hahaha ya then went to pizza hut to eat...he ate beef lasagne while i ate some sausage mania pasta i think and he ordered sweet n spicy drumlets....anyway both meals were student meals...hahah saved lots!

then as usual!he n his "iron man" keep aksing me to watch with him again since like the last time he watched it which is like on...er wed??yaaaa...until today still keep asking...then in the end went to watch with him lor...3.30pm show...ok la the show not bad la...only like the "good triumph over bad" part...lol..not bad show...heez=)

then after movie about 5 plus...went to play arcade...played some alien shooing game...then played the drum thing....then dance para para....well he danced first..so funny!LOL...then i tried...noone was looking tt's why i dare...hahah!it was so dumb!lol...then suddenly got 1 big group behind...=X so paiseh!!!then after we played got this guy play...waaa he sooo pro!!hahaha nice moves lol!

then went out...walked around, look at things, thinking of wht to do next....felt like eating ice cream...so bought banana crunch from anderson's....oh man!1 small scoop for $4.50!!is the ice cream really tt high class to such extend??seriously...it doesnt taste much of a difference=.=

then went off to take bus back to our area...went to westmall to eat dinner...ate at the food court...wanted to watch the 9pm channel 8 show tt's why...hahaha!last episode...oh man im a tv addict!LOL!i always am la...hahah...i ate kway chap, he ate duck rice and we both shared an ice kachang...then he drank almond milk...ehhh i didnt know got almond milk lei...smells and taste nice lor..only things is its hot!LOL!

after tt went home...so tired!*yawns* tmr still got meeting at aunt beng lay house..heard tt she leaving 51st coy=(haiz...........

didnt take many pics...cos my phone no batt!!!so unlucky!!if not i could have videoed his para para dance and post it here!!hahahaha!so funny!lol!!and he wear so nice today...like him to wear like tt..more mature..not like shirt and shorts..or shirt and 3/4s...hahaha..nice!!=D

enjoyed myself today!!alot~!he took leave again on monday....he said we r going to the zooooo!!should i believe him??thought he was against it...=P..let's hope he doesnt change his mind!yeahh!!!i can visit the animals again!!hope it will be another day of fun!!anyway...he going to the stay in camp soon...next time wanna see hima lso cannot le...so sad=( but oh well!!!hahah maybe its God's way of making him savemoney for next time!!heez^^

thank God for today=)
and its the weekends again....hope i can finish my research for my CRM project...already done witht he 1 page summary..now left the presentation materials...jia you!!then i canplay on mon...haha!=D

*loves*

2008-05-01T12:42:00.002+08:00

so bored at home!went to the market with my mother in the morning...came back eat breakfast..watch tv...then wanted to print my work but printer not working..now i have to like go school early tmr to print my stuff..dun even know if the library is open...hmmm...and haven gotten my income whole life insurance quotation cos my father forgotten to print...haiz why theprinter not working!!?!so inconvenient=(

done with my FI tutorial..next must do the CRM environment project.....hmmm...presentation next tues...

i wanna go to the zoo!!=D

so boring=(dunlike staying at home during public holidays....nth to do one...sianz...

anyway just now had some random thoughts....heez...was thinking of ho i want my house to be like...and then i thought of having a backyard for my house...then when i feel like bbqing then can just buy the stuff and bbq in my backyard...isnt tt cool....then when mooncake festival can sit there and look at the moon also...hahaha..so nice!then next time when got gathering...all the kids can play in the backyard...then i shall have one karaoke room then the old folks or adults can sing songs...then have 1 tv room..then the older kids can watch their movies and stuff...then my kitchen should be big enough for housewives to cook and prepare meals...then the living room must have mahjong table so tt some of them can play mahjong...hahaha it will be good if got swimming pool...then once in a while can go for a swim...lol..

oh whteer....all this are part of my dream..lol..it will never happen..all this seldom happen in real life...only a few ppl are tt fortunate....ha!*dreamz*(of course i wish it will come true)=P but its gonna cost a bomb maintaining it!Ooooo.....*back to earth*

now i gotta go work on my project....................................................................

*loves*

2008-05-01T00:25:00.003+08:00

was home the wholeee day...sleeping, exercising, watching tv...blablabla...

was deciding whether to go for leadership lecture this evening but decided not to...met up with josel,debra,charis,jonsnr,merv and junhao....jon snr,merv and junhao went to watch ironman...then us girls went to walk around...nth much to walk also..lol..and josel was all crazy about her turtle.....hahaha!so funny!=Dwanted to play arcade but dun have the tapz card...then went down to mac to sit and wait for the guys...bought caramel frappe....not a fan of coffee...first mouth was nice then after a few mouth i felt like vomitting....it just gives a "backfired" taste??lol...its just not my type of drink..hahaha...gave it to junhao in the end...anyway we had a great time=)

then went home with jon snr..enjoyed talking to him also...ohhh..and thanks for sending me home=D

anyway saw justice keith pousson yesterday...yess!the guy tt was in the same class as me in sec sch...the first time i saw him was in the canteen...but im not really sure if it was him cos i heard he went back to US...butt then saw him at the bus stop again...then it was really him!!i always remember him cos he's like a genius in science and d&T and according to my bro he's a good biker!hahah!now he's in design sch yr 1...way to go man!jia you!^^

today...during lunch time...darling sent me this msg...
1)wht time do i sleep and wake up during my holidays?
2)wht kind of food do i feel like eating now?
3)what is my fav colour?
4)who do i like most?

he said he wanted to help me do some test thing on his fren's blog..then i ask him give me the add i do myself..he say is army de so cannot give...so i ans...

1)sleep at 1am wake up at 9.30am
2)porridge
3)red
4)totti(my guinea pig)

then he replied...i must specify wht kind of porridge..so i said pork porridge..
then he replied again...he said...i was born between 1am and 9.30am...i love red cos it represents chilli and i love chilli....and when i was young i look like my guinea pig!!wht nonsense right??LOL!!theni was like wth...crazy...then in the noon...my doorbell rang...then it was himmmm lor!!!!i was like ???lol...and guess wht he bought..he bought pork porridge...hahaha theni realize its just all rubbish lor..he just used all those qns to trick me!!LOL...but he was sweet....he rushed here to buy lunch eat with me then cab-ed back to camp...hahahahaha....so nice=D*love ya* but i wont be having such priviledges anymore...he going to another camp at mandai..its a stay-in camp...so i cant talk to him at night so often anymore..i cant call him tt often too...and i cant meet up with him so often le....this r.s is sure challenging...haizzzz=( but anyway thanks for the small effort today=) we'll just take 1 step at a time la.....

min asked me to go pulau ubin with some of the YAM ppl tmr...but my mum wants to stay home to help my sis with her maths cos her exams are coming and she cannot make it...so i dun think i have a choice...really wanna go pulau ubin=(have been wanting to go for so long le......but nvm la...another time ba=( enjoy urself min!=D

wanted to talk to darling through the night today...butttt he got sheperd's training tmr=( so sad...haiz..hao bu rong yi can talk lei....and like next day he no camp lei....now cannot le...hmmm...nvm la....i dunno why we got so many things to talk about also lol!

the hole in the ozone layer is getting bigger!!itsss soooo hot!!but today not as hot as yesterday....at least today still got a little bit of wind in the morning...but its like..unbearable!!luckily im fortunate enough to have air-con if not im dead...and im like always producing heat i dunno why....tt time i sit beside my sis and she was like "jie, i think u are giving out heat...i can feel the heat coming out of ur body" then i was like =.= i'd rather cold than hot...cold's much better...at least when cold can wear jacket or wht...but when hot cant possible take out everything right...so cold better than hot....hahahah!*lame*

alrights...nitez

*loveS*

2008-04-30T12:00:00.002+08:00

yesterday wasnt a good day to begin with...weather so hot!!feel so grouchy=(
missed the bus...prayed and God answered my prayer!^^he provided another bus in less than a min after i prayed...thank God..cos of tt i wasnt late for school^^

had lessons...quite alright...more projects coming up...hmmm..busy busy busy..

then after lesson went to library to photocopy somee stuff and guess wht?!? i lost my TB!!!it's so ex!!and so imp!!and i can lost it...i put it beside my bag and there was a bookmark,....it definitely is an intentional act lor!!!even if its yr 1 shld be old enough to know tt tt is not a library book!!!wth!!whoever tt is...no integrity!!so mean!!!now i have to go get another one...and not want to buy then have one lor...must order somemore and where got order 1 then ppl send here for u...see la..i dunno le la...sianz!

then so sianz already wanna meet darling to talk awhile then meet meet meet in the end meet at westmall...then we go swensens...not nice one lor the food*bleah*so horrible!!
anyway sorry for the lousy attitude yesterday la....i wasnt int he right mood u see....neevrtheless...HAPPY 2ND MTH!=D

anyway someone plsssss......return me my TB la....='(

gtg now...bb

*loves*

2008-04-27T18:34:00.013+08:00

celebrated sabrina's birthday yesterday...with egg tarts!!bought by pei qi hahaha...although her birthday was last sunday la..it was a belated celebration^^hahaha..and also the card made by darling...
here are some pics...

the egg tarts bought by pei qi=D

sabrina and the tarts!!LOL!she looked like she was filming an advertisement...hee~

Sabrina and joyce^^

and us all!!^^

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SABRINA!!=D

anyway out of point awhile..this is a pic of me n amanda during lecture break=P

ha!she's a nice fren!but sometimes she complains waaayyy too much!LOL!she will kill me when she sees this!HAHAHA!

after dance,didnt go for Q...went to grandma house instead...brought my guinea pig there...she hasnt gone out for a looonnnggg time!hahaha!some pics of her while we were all watching tv after dinner~

she always takes a break with her but up everytime when she's out of the cage haha!so cute!!~

and this is a pic of her n the half eaten grape beside her!haha!^^

and in the morning before i left home for church...had to go downstairs and help parents carry some stuff..my sis took her out of her cage before tt and before she was left unattended for awhile with no food....and see what she did!!LOL!

she climbed up and kept looking and smelling the food!LOL!so SMART!!hahaha!

other than tt these are some of the things she LLOOOVES to do!HAHA!enjoy~

lying inside my sis cupboard lol..everytime when she's there..she'll lie down within a few mins...heez^^

eating fruitsss...so far she only tried...apple,pear,banana,grapes,orange..let her try durian but she didnt like it..she turned away!haha!we always give her the core of the fruits and she will finish it for us...clean!save food..lol

lying in her food plate when she eats until she's tired!LOL!=D

HAHAH!!seeing her just makes me smile!=D love her lots!LOL!!

ohhh and to end this post..i have a quick video introduced by my sis...so cute!^^enjoy~

2008-04-25T21:51:00.003+08:00

more hw!all research,research and research!group works for almost all the subjects....

just completed my part of the research..wonder if the info is sufficient...so tired*yawns*

yesterday went to watch movie with darling after a quarrel=P watched 'superhero movie' its like a =.= show...dragonfly!!oh man!!wht a superhero name=.=but the costume not bad la except tt its green....hmmm...ok only la...darling like to watch can le lor...

anyway have decided to just leave everything as it is la....as long as i dun bother so much everything should be fine la huh...*patience is a virtue*=)

tmr got dance!i always look forward to dance..so relaxing and i love it...hahaha=)but cant go for Q have to go to my grandma house this week cos last week didnt go...anyway she just went for an op so its only right tt we go visit her la=)

last week of sunday school on sunday...Joel suppose to lead lesson and sum up everything!hhahahah!hope he did prepare lol...i miss AAT!wonder are they still doing genesis..and which chapter they at le...hmmm...

mother's day coming soon...wanna do sth for my mum but dunno wht lei...hmm she loves flowers....but not those ordinary bouquet flowers..she loves flowers from the orchard....and not those common ones...those extraordinary ones...maybe one day i shld go down to some orchards with darling and take a look...hahaha father's daynext mth..haven thought of wht to get for my father lei...guys usually so hard to get gifts or even to make gifts lol....get clothes?my father also not tt kind so concern about his dressing wht's more he go work got uniform de so not so practical to buy clothes...buy shoes?he seldom wear shoes but rather slippers and he already has so many pairs lol...hmm...organizer??usually he has la from income...well..ill come to tt later...hahaha^^

now darling went for the spiritual formation class...think he's gonna be back late again...hope he not so tired ba...anyway tmr no GB...dun need to wake up early!yeah!^^Ooops=X i haven finished the frenship band lor!!oh man im like so busy..i forgotten about it=P

anyway my father seems like a changed man..he's more loving now..he's trying his best to understand us as his children..he doesnt scold us anymore rather he jokes with us..and whenever my mum is angry he tries to joke to lighten the mood but at the same time makes sure tt we learn from our mistakes...im so happy!=)im so happy tt his mood is better now..he's happier now...i hope tt this will continue=)i hope tt he will be happy forever=)Thank God for tt i know God has been working in his life and my family=D

oh ya!there's also a class gathering next friday..going to seoul garden...its part of our APEL lesson...hope it will be fun^^Thanks social reps for organising this=)

haiyo...today's entry sooo messy....cos i dunno wht to write so i just write whtever tt comes to my mind..so like no sequence lol...but dun care la....hahaha

heez....gtg now..so tired*yawnss*

*loves*

2008-04-23T16:36:00.002+08:00

second day of school...more projects...more work..more research!!hmmm!im not taking it very well...i cant stand stress ill just screw everything up=( projects makes me feel im not good at anything at all......

oh well...ill just have to take everything as it comes...today the FPQA teacher so funny!its this kind of teachers tt make our mood lighter and helps us relax....model teacher>.< maybe for now....hahaha...

for those who knows wht i'm talking about...my patience is like running low....just have to bear with it i guess...i cat do much about it anyway..everything's been decided so.......go with the flow~~~~~~~~pray tt ill survive through this...

anyway i forgot my password for my blackboard!!!how terrible..im sure its some stupid password tt gotta do with raphael!cos i remembered changing it..now im dead!i forgot about it...how now?=(oh well...ill see about it.....

money's running low...now a very good first wee although i only need to go to school for like 3 days?it doesnt help to make me happier with all the projects coming in........im complaining again=.=

p/s: sorry about tt...........

*loveS*

2008-04-23T16:20:00.007+08:00

moreeee picsssss!^^

that's us!the emcees!=D(too bad the puppets 'mini min and mini feng' are not here)=P

that' us all!! guess where am i??^^(HAPPY 5TH BITHDAY PULSE)I LOVE PULSE!!^^

AAT GIRLS!!~(fromleft to right-->hui wen, juliana, min hui, debra, charis, me)^^

It's them again=Dthis time candid~=P (poor jun hao!hahah!)

AAT!!~=D (the people that have been walking with me for 5 yrs!~love them lots!=D)

*God's love is in abundance*!!^^

*loves*

2008-04-22T22:52:00.009+08:00

haiz...now i realize how come other ppl can put so many fonts and colour and i cannot...cos i have been writing my posts under the 'edit Html' column=.= such a dumb dumb!!hmmm!!anyway this are the pics tt i owed from the previous post^^

the comm tt made it happened~!(of course with God as their banner)^^

sweet ladies!^^(from left to right-->min hui, xiu yun, me, debra and josel[in front])

min hui n pei qi^^(their smiles are so sweet!~)

me n darling^^

siblings forever!~=D

Me n lovely debra^^(she's pretty!)

THANSKGIVING!~

2008-04-22T15:02:00.002+08:00

yeah!its time for thanksgiving!
nth is perfect..during the dinner there were some hiccups along the way and after awhile the problem was solved...after certain thought i realized tt it was just God;s way of showing us he's there and he can see..and he was with us^^

my 5 yrs in pulse has been enriching!i learnt many things through many ppl tt God has put into my life at every stage.

i wanna thank:

STEPH for being my mentor..for being accountable to me always whether be it in r.s or personal life...i have been doing bible study with her for a yr or so and through her i learnt alot about r.s and how to have a Godly r.s!although she is not in AAT anymore i sure missed her alot!THANKS STEPH!=D

ANGELINE for being there for me when i needed someone to talk to when i quarelled with him and stuff and for making me smile and also for encouraging me always in whtever i do^^THANKS ANGEL!=D

AATfor the frens i make there throughout the 5 yrs in pulse...for making me feel welcome and bringing joy to the lesson every sunday!lessons will never be the same if any of u were missing!=D oh ya the ppl includes, ju,min,huiwen,debra,charis,clifford,boren,joshua,jerome,shawn,joel,merv,samtan. all of us have grown alot and thank God we are more bonded now...love the discussions we always have when studying genesis^^THANKS AAT!~YOU ROCK!=D

JASON AND JON SNR for always encouraging me and telling me to be confident when i first started out as a vocalist..it was tough cos i was scared...i was too self-concsious and thank God they were there to always encourage me^^THANKS GUYS!~=D

UNCLE JAMES,AUNTIE SUSAN for fetching me home after worship practice as long as they were in church..i really thank God for them...THANK YOU!~=D

UNCLE WONG MUI,AUNTIE BENG LAY for fetching me for GB every sat and sometimes fetching me back home, to church and to grandma house as long as its on the way they will never forget to ask if i want a ride..so nice of them...THANK YOU!~=D

the D&D COMM(Josel,Wenbing,Minhui,Mandy,Junhao,Jonjnr,Jonsnr,Evania,Stephjnr,nat and angel) for organising such a GREAT and MEMORABLE dinner!!i believed everyone enjoyed themselves...i too enjoyed myself alot!hahha!!the programmes were great, the games were fun, the dinner was nice, the ppl were so happy!saw the pics sam tan sent...all the smiles on their faces so nice^^the skit was so touching,i almost cried!it was so real!WELL DONE PPL!!!of course nth is perfect, there were small hiccups along the way but it was still solved in the end and iguess it was God's way of showing us tt he's there^^i'm sure he's glad!!^^it was really a job well done!!^^capable bunch of ppl and great leadership from josel!!=Dyeah!!THANK GOD FOR THEIR WILLING HEARTS TO SERVE!=D

emceeing with min was also so fun!!lol..we were laughing behind the cloth when we were doing the puppet thing!LOL!!GREAT JOB GIRL!! WE DID IT!!YEAH~!=D

i also wanna thank God for:

my PARENTS for being there to give me advice on decisions tt i have to make in life and for supporting me in everything tt i do be it in sch or in church..they have always been encouraging, caring and loving parents and i thank God for them

my SIBLINGS for being my companion always...ever since they were born i was never alone...they never left me alone they were always around me disturbing me=P but they do encourage me when im sad and i treasure their presence..i thank God for them^^

my FRENS in school for teaching me stuff tt i dunno and always patient with my ignorance for some matters...and also for their companionship, encouraging words and listening ear...i thank God for giving me a GREAT bunch of frens!~=D

ISABELLE for taking the initiative to keep in touch with me cos im not tt kind tt keep in touch of ppl cos im afraid it might disturb their private life....thanks her for being so patient when talking to me cos sometimes im so busy i didnt reply her...nevertheless she still waited for my reply^^THANK GOD FOR SUCH A NICE FREN!!~=D

lastly i just wanna thank God for any living soul tt have helped me grow through this 5 yrs in pulse..anyone tt has motivated me to keep coming to church and anyone tt has always been there for me....i didnt forget about any of u!THANK GOD FOR YOU!^^

oh ya 1 last last last thing...

JUN HAOfor putting up with my nonsense when im unhappy and for putting up with all the pinching!!!LOL!!!sorry for the blueblack=P and also thanks for being there for me through my ups &downs..sorry for all the hurts i've caused u last time^^oh and also thank God for the patience u have towards my siblings^^I LOVE YOU DARLING!~THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME SUCH A GREAT GUY!=D

alright...tt's all...gtg now..rushing for my class^^

*loves*

2008-04-22T14:19:00.003+08:00

first day of school...ppl were different..i didnt feel the bond tt close anymore..or maybe its just me..im being sensitive?hmmm..oh welll...things do change..time to adapt...hee^^got study guides and a list of projects for CRM(consumer resource management)...really lots of group work to do...gotta learn to work with ppl...hmmm

anyway i haven updated for quite a long long long time and this entry is gonna be some wht longgggg...hahaha with no pics cos im in school....^^

last thurs...went to ikea with angel and realized tt the restaurant was under renovation=(miss the food there=( anyway bought some stuff for deco for the D&D on sat...after tt we were deciding on whether to paint a banner...and we agreed...so we went to clementi to eat lunch and then get the cloth then the paint and the brushes...then bus-ed back to church...on the way saw zac and xy...haha of course man..it was after-school hours..the bus was packed esp 154...we had to miss a bus cos it was so full the bus didnt even stop to try to pick us up...haha!but oh well..we reached church..and jason was doing some drawing for the committee...and angel bought the frames..so sweet of them...hahaha...the drawings were funny but cute!hahah somehow it looks like them...lol...

on friday, met angel in church at 11++ then started witht he banner in the library...then went for lunch with pei en..on the way saw jason...then after lunch we went back to continue drawing and painting....it was hardddd...esp the pulse sign lol...angel was like thinking hardddd how to draw it lol!>>> fast forward>>>>after a hard day's work we finally completed it!!it was sososososo beautiful!!hahaha we finished a banner in a day!!1 DAY!!tt was fast!hahah...it turned out nice..thank God for tt^^
at night went with xy to buy clothes for D&D..although she is skinny but she is young so its like so hard to find clothes for her...nice clothes i mean...lol..went to tom&stephanie...found this dress...looked good on her...then went around the mall to see if there are any nicer ones...but apparently tt was the nicest...so she bought it...darling met us after tt and he too bought his clothes...FINALLY!LOL!the shirt was nice la...hahah...thank God they both got their clothes...haha!

now for the big day!!hahaha its sat and its D&D day..heez...went for gb in the morning..went straight home after tt...bathed, lunched and changed ready to go out...met darling at my house the bus stop...went to straighten my hair=$12...the price not too bad la...hahah!it looked nice...train-ed to jurong east to meet the rest..saw min at the bb platform...hahaha!she late also LOL!!same same^^

train-ed to paya lebar after tt...wen bing is so funny!!she didnt know me n darling together le then when she saw us hold hands she got a shock!!LOL!!super cute!hahah!then went to the restaurant...nice place but room a little small but its cosy!hahah...had to shift the stage and the tables a little to make sure everyone can see and stuff...darling forgot to bring the sitting plan!most imp thing!!hhaha then he had to go find his solution of courseee....then when everything was done..me n min rehearsed our emceeing...and then roger and zhi qiang practiced their worship songs...then the committee practiced their skit...its like so fun!then it was time..they went to change and got ready for the guests!!yeah!!^^as more n more ppl came the mood was getting happier and happier...it was so nice to see ppl coming and to see the room filled hahaha....walked aroound talked,laughed,took photos...

it was time for the dinner...emceeing was great!!hahaha heard the audience laughed so loud lol...was relieved....it was fun emceeing with min also...we were at the back of the cloth smiling and laughing hahaha...so fun!then it was....dinner time!!the food was great but didnt get to eat much cos was busy...then it was games!!so fun!!hahaha first time see jerome smile lor...lol!the games were fun the ppl were sporting...then next was the video created by jon snr...then a time of sharing...the adults were the ones tt shared the most hahaha...then it was the skit!!!it was super nice!!super touching!!it was just simply great!i almost cried...it was just sooo real!well done ppl!^^it wass soon the end....photo-taking time!!we took a whole group photos..then we took turns to take individual pics and stuff hahaha...so fun!lol..just brief summary of the dinner la...photos will be up when i have the time...tune in to next entry for thanksgiving^^heez~!

p/s: i know this entry is long and maybe boring but oh welll...haha=D

*loves*

2008-04-15T23:36:00.012+08:00

phew~wht a long day....

supposed to bring my sis to the doc's today but my mum left when i was still sleeping=.= but my dad was there so i guess i wasnt needed...ha! took a bus to jp to take out the sensor tag from my dress....then took another bus down to ps to get the stuff for puppets...and help my mother buy some stuff...was like some housewife doing groceries shopping u see...then it rained...i didnt bring umbrella!!thank God it wasnt so heavy hahaha...when i reached the bus stop then it got heavier!HAHA!

then went home..waited for jon snr to call...then he msg-ed me at 8.15 then ast min i wanted to go bathe...so i quickly rushed to the toilet then bathed...within 10 mins im out!!record time!!HAHA!then went to min hui's house to do the script...just came back...*tired* oh ya!!my guinea pig almost climbed out of her cage today!!just cos she wanted to eat the carrot!!so cute!!!hahaha.. here are some pics..enjoy~

that's her lying down after her meal..(my sis did it she didnt do it herelf=D)

my father scared her~!

taking a peek at the camera~!

waiting for food~!

Ooopsss~got caught taking pic of her=P~!

finallyyy she got her food~!heez^^

^^video of her eating~!so cute!!loved by me always^^

alright....tt's all for today...nth much la...heez^^

nitez all~!

*loves*

2008-04-14T21:28:00.003+08:00

my sis had an injection today..2 injections...the normal ones taken in pri sch...haha..tmr gotta bring her to see a doc with my mum...so cant go out with angeline=(

tmr going to min hui's house with jon snr to discuss the script for d&d...oh...im emceeing with min hui!!cousin power!!LOL^^ just hope and pray tt everything turns out fine...hmmm...

nth much to write...

oh ya continuation from yest...forgot to put up this 2 pics...hahah...saw the first gown at marina sq...second one at imm yest...its beautiful!^^

at marina sq...

at imm...

beautiful hor??hahah..my hobby^^

*loves*

2008-04-14T00:11:00.007+08:00

heez!it's a sunday!BB enrolment!just love enrolmnt!!both BB and GB...i get to see the guys and girls in uniform..they look so smart!hahah!

miss cue for the starting song=Pbut overall everything's ok..haha announcement super super long today!LOL...and the pulse video really very very very nice!!!everyone is like so natural!!hahah they all like so happy and steph jnr soooo cute!!!LOl...all ofthem look so great in the pic...Josel pai de right?good job man!hahah...

this coming sat is the dinner!!yeah!!so excited!cant wait!LOL!i think its gonna be super fun!HAHA!!busy week this week!D&D ppl jia you!!heez..

went out with darling and josel for dinner today..the rest had to go home...dunno where to eat so cab down to imm...ate at 'bagus'...ate the seafood cheese baked rice...waaaa i waited till the cows came home man..so long!!LOl!but ok la...not too bad...went to daiso after tt to find some stuff...then went to giant...then josel was like super funny...hahah..she was laughing andlaughing lol!!after tt couldnt find the stuff we wanted to went to eat dessert at cafe cartel...half price ma..lol!we ordered some chewy chocolate dnno wht cake and rum and banana....not bad...haha...then each of us ordered a drink..i ordered...

BLUE CORAL~looks nice hor??it tastes nice too^_^

then we drank, ate and chat for about an hour...took some pics too...

jun hao and josel...oh ya and the cake on the left is chewy chocolate and the right is rum and banana^^

me and josel acting cute!!LOL..

me n josel again...its like we just woke up...our hair so messy!!LOL

anyway josel is like super funny!!made me laugh and laugh hahaha..and then jh made a video of her in such a way tt when she calls...it will just play her video as a ring tone...lol!super funny!!LOL....i think now everytime when she calls jh will get scared haha!!its so fun today!!i love to go out with ppl who are always so happy and smiling and laughing all the time...cos when i see them laugh and smile im happy too^^ thank God for giving me such frens^^

OOOO...its getting late....gotta sleeeeeepppp^^nitez ppl!!
p/s: 1 more week before sch starts=( now with so many things happening..i dun wanna go back to sch=( but i have to get a life instead of playing all day long...so wake up xiufeng!its time for sch!!=D

*loveS*

2008-04-14T00:03:00.002+08:00

it's a saturday!!!full of activities!!

in the morning just realized i didnt msg steph whether im meeting her or not...cos i haven completed transferring all my contacts into my new phone...and i guess lots of ppl msg my old phone=P so sorry about tt ppl!!thought tt the new directory come out le then slowly save the contacts so like its updated...so sorry steph=P anyway i postphoned it to next week..heez^^went for GB in the morning...they continued with their frenship band...then after tt me n my aunt brought all the bands back home to polish up....and to finish it up for them...oh man!its alot of work!each grp..approx 10 ppl?!? and i only took 2 packets...my aunt took the rest of the 4 i think...so jia lat!~oh ya led the songs during GB...my voice like not warmed up...almost go out of tune so many times..some more no musicians...lol so funny man!LOL

then during the free time before dance..was drawing my steps...doing QT and stuff...ooppss...all last min man..so bad!~but managed to finish up on time...then dance was great fun man!time of bonding!love u guys so much!^^and debra's back!!!!hahaha!!

after dance went back home...must go grandma house...so tired le!!*yawnz*suppose to have Q but i promised alt weeks so i went last week..so no choice have to go grandma hosue this week...they going to alexis house to cook leiiii...so fun!=)its a pity i cant go!=(

yepps...here ends my sat!^^

*loveS*

2008-04-13T23:22:00.006+08:00

so busy the past 2 days...no time to blog...hahaha...alrights...so are my entries...ill blog about friday first..haha!

darling took off!!im so so so happy!!HAHAHA!its such a long time since we went out...and this is kinda the first time we officially dated??hahahah!!so cool!!can u imagine...i couldnt sleep the whole night..was like tossing and turning..trying to sleep early but cant got so irritated lol!soon morning came..lol..woke up so early!met him at queenstown mrt at 10...anddd he was late...but being a nice gf i wasnt angry..heez^^ went to queenstown shopping centre and all the shops were like not open and the cleaner was still mopping the floor?!?we ate breakfast and waited...then went upstairs to take a look...just nice....1 stall just opened...and its guy's wear..so he went in to see....tried and tried..and he bought 2 shirts and a jeans=$50...satisfied he went downstaris...

to buy a pair of blue contacts=$18...can see the diff in his eyes??cool??^^

after tt we left for town...wanted to eat at the seoul garden..butttt..unfortunately...

it was booked by a tour group and its full house!!and this was taken at marina sq branch...i think taka branch got no space so sme spilled over..=P

so ya..as i was saying...we went over to marina sq branch instead...spent 20 mins walkinggggg...the whole of marina sq...just trying to find the seoul garden..and in the end when we found out where is it we wanted to kill ourselves...it was outside so near the bridge tt we crossed...we were so busy talking tt we walked past it and we still didnt know..LOL really super dumb!haha..had a great time there...the place is good..so empty haha!!and first time we managed to finish our food with no trouble...or rather a little bit of trouble hahha..nice...anyway we tried a new method to cook the egg....bbq egg^^ i cracked the egg...poured the egg white into the soup to boil then...and this was the beautiful result!!

BEFORE~

AFTER~

cool right??haha and he's like enjoying the egg...like its super nice like tt lor..LOL

haha and im happy tt he enjoyed himself hahahahaha...cos its his fav hobby...

EATING!!~LOL

after eating we walked around....cos we kinda needed some quick digestion in our stomachs lol...then after tt about 5+...we left for jp...went to this fashion...tried on clothes...anddd!!bought a black dress and a necklace to go with it!!^^yeah!!haha so happy i can fit into a dress!!i love "this fashion" so much tt i signed up as member for 2 yrs=.=! but the dress was really nice...Ooo an one stupid thing..i have to go back again..cos the sensor tag wasnt removed LOL!!..but my sis has to get her clothes anyway so i dun mind la...hahahacan see more clothes...haha!!thank God for answering my prayers man!^^

i went for worship prac and he went for the spiritual formation after tt^^

THE END!~

so happy!!HAHAHA!

*loves*

2008-04-10T14:11:00.006+08:00

FINALLY GOT TO WENT OUT WITH BELLE AGAIN AFTER SUCH A LONGGGG TIME!^^HAD GREAT FUN!=D

went to lucky plaza...she brought me to eat at this indonesian restaurant..the food not bad ordered chicken+rice=$6.50 and happy soda=$1.80.

our food~!

the chicken!looks nice horz?it is nice!^^

we talked and laughed over the meal..so much to catch up!^^was still afraid tt we couldnt talk since we hadnt been meeting up..lol..but the time spent over lunch was great!^^after tt went upstairs to play pool...such a funny game!

Belle~!

lol!she is PRO k~!the ball went in lor!LOL=D

we played 3 games altogether..the last game didnt really finish...no time haa!one of the games...belle hit the white ball out of the table!LOL lucky the table beside was empty!LOL!!then..she fell into a hole at the side of the wall!LOL!!she was laughing and laughing!LOL~!andddd the lady was so stingy!it was supposed to be $4/hour..but she charged us..$4.10...y?cos we were 1 min late...or rather not even 1 min..maybe about 30sec late=.=

anyway after tt went over to play arcade!another time of retardedness!(if there ever is such a word)lol!playe dayton...she won both rounds~!>.< then played house ofthe dead...not fun de..house of the dead 4 nicer!LOL!then pplayed this big bus game!!super funnny!!i was like banging cars off the road!LOL and then canpress the horn some more!!so fun!we were laughing and laughing non stop!LOL!after tt played this 'bish bash' game or sth like tt...lol...she won everything!haha my co-ordination sucks man!LOL>.<

played some pucker thing after tt....the table was small and short we had to kneel down and play!haha!

ME~!(in the middle of the game)

belle~!

anyway there's this coin machine or rather token machine behind her...we put token inside then it would produce tickets and then if lucky the mahcine push push push more tokens will drop out!LOL we were laughing and laughing like crazy..and belle ended up sitting on the floor laughing!LOL and there's this man playing for so long already...then he was like laughing at us cos we r like retards!LOL!so funny!

we got 72 tickets and we exchanged it for 7 lollis LOL!!belle took 3 i took 4=P

belle and the lollis~!

and thats us!with the lollis~!^^

after tt went to toilet and took lots and lots of pics!LOLall in my friendster!HAHA!but here are some^^

=vanity exposed=P=

new cleaner for today=X

love this pic lots man!!i think both of us look so sweet^^

rest of the few pics taken^^

heez..after tt we walked the the mrt station, hugged and bid each other farewell...we promised to meet up soon..next time it will be ubin belle^^had great fun!*muackz*

went to bugis after tt to meet my sis and ddarling..ate dinner..then went to bugis street to walk..saw lots of nice dresses...my sis gonna wear a dress...think she will look great in it=)heez...as usual couldnt find anything for myself...hahah..went over to bugis junction and guess wht i saw?!?

A HOT PINK WEDDING GOWN!!!!!SOOOO BEAUTIFUL~~~

haha..after tt wentto look at some more clothes then went down to play arcade after tt...haha!took a bus home..wanted to find a faster bus so boarded and alighted boarded and alighted...haha in the end found 174...shld be the fastest bus in town i guess haha...and...home sweet home~ wht a long and fun day!^^

this post is special!!!and long!!!cossss..it has pics!for the very first time!!woahhh!I DID IT!!^^

*loves*

2008-04-08T12:08:00.002+08:00

IT'S JUST SIMPLY AMAZING HOW GOD SPEAKS!

i was very angry at this particular person on msn..about the way he talks and everything...he an annonymus person..someone whom i neevr knew...speaks like he knows me inside out....utter rubbish...i was talking to darling over the phone and i was so pissed that i was hurling insults at tt person...

at tt point in time i had the urge to read my devotional material...and so happen...the verse read:

"know this, my beloved brothers:let every person be quick tohear, slow to speak, slow to anger;for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness that God requires.Therefore put away all filthiness and rampant wickedness and receive with meekness the implanted word, which is ablt to save your souls."

James 1:19-21

after reading this..i felt at peace...i felt that it is alright to get angry...and then read the word of God..and then learn from my mistake and repent...

oh...and for those who are wondering..."meek=humble"
meekness=power under control andnot weakness or timidity

~!PRAISE BE TO GOD!~

*loveS*

2008-04-06T20:37:00.002+08:00

something's wrong with my stomach....it hurts whenever i eat...its like...it never happened=(it feels bloated..maybe sth's wrong=(

wasnt feeling very well at Q yesterday...even at dance..my bones were aching..its like im gonna get a fever soon...it got worse at Q...but no fever its like just "fa re qi"...this morning still not very well...but now feel better le...

thought in kids church today...oh man!i think it was a disaster,...i think i didnt do a good job..hmm=( i didnt know how to get the msg across...i was like at a loss for words...wonder if the kids really knew wht was the lessons about actually...haiz...nvm..ill try again next time=P

pulse dinner and dance coming...wanna wear a dress..but my mum say i shld wear those half-half de..which means...shirt and skirt/ shirt and pants...cos wearing a dress would make me look rounder=( looked through joyce's blog...saw this white dress...SUPER nice!!love it ALOT!butttt...as usual...i measure everything myself..it just doesnt suit the measurement...wanted to ask her if she think i can fit into tt dress...but where got ppl ask like tt de...lol!so nvm lor...haiz..i'll just go look around the malls with darling some day..maybe if imlucky i might find sth nice...if not then nvm la..........

was sitting in the car on the way home just now...drove past a funeral...then the fear came back again..and i teared=(

its a start of a new week..sch's starting soon!!^^wanna catch up with all my frens before school starts..haha..last week went to seoul garden with claire,zuzi,eliz,yani...this wed going ubin with belle...and this fri going sakura emi,pris and darling^^and the last week is to prepare for the start of sch^^

rights....gtg now...cya!

*loves*

2008-04-03T12:20:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CLAIRE!!

haha wished her many times le but in diff places...lol..
went to seoul garden with eliz, yani, zuzi and claire yest to celebrate claire's birthday^^its a weekday and there's not many ppl!i love going to town on weekdays...not so crowded haha!anyway we talked and laughed and ate...so fun!^^

we were so full after tt!!then took pics in the toilet..LOL and then in the lift...and then went over to wisma and took some more pics!then crossed the road...went to lucky plaza to play pool...and took even more pics!hahah...i say until like take alot of pics right...actually not alot la..haha!but it was fun...zuzi, claire and eliz so good at pool!lol..their ball got power!!X)

after tt zuzi had to leave for work...so she left lor...then yani wasnt feeling very well...then she wanna go home...but then i begged her to stay=X now i feel so bad..cos she not feelings well i still ask her to stay!=( sorry yani=( but i hope she enjoyed herself at the arcade playing daytona and the house of the dead!lol..

the daytona machine very funny!eliz's machine keep autodriving by itself...both times she play also like tt..lol..then my machine..at first the token got stuck then call the auntie come..then after tt the machine just let me continue playing even without putting in tokens..lol!!so we all take turns to playLOl....except yani cos until her turn then the machine went back to the "insert coins" tt page...lol..after tt we left lucky plaza...then walkled along the road..alllllthe way to plaza sing!tt's a long walk lor..i didnt know we could walk there..allt he while i thought plpaza sing was far...haha next time when i go town with darling...we'll walk there...lol..but it was tiring..so long!LOL...

when we reached there, yani had to go off...then me,eliz and claire went to plaza sing to walk...went to world of sports then to action city...played with all the stuff at action city...actually the stuff there quite nice..haha...then waited for darling to come...lucky eliz and claire were there to accompany me if not ill be so bored!thanks girls^^then when he came then they went off...oh ya...claire...thanks for helping me buy the crystal case^^heez!

went with darling to eat LJS....i only ate pineapple cheese and clam chowder...dieting..lol!!no la..its cos of a heavy lunch tt im still full..tt's why...after eating..went to the arcade...played house of the dead 4 and went to catch 'bear bear' of course cannot ccatch la..lol..walked past the movies....saw ju!!lol..she working there since tues...lol...tt's why i saw brian downstairs i guess...i thought i saw wrong person haha!working there looks relaxing and fun...ya tt's cos weekdays..wait till weekends lol!!cool!^^then went to walk around...eachlevel by each level...so tired le still wallk..crazy right...haiz..

walked past shoe shops..trying to find those flat covered shoes tt ppl wearing nowadays but cannot find nice ones=((then went down to basement to eat ice monster!!!hahaha..joselll i ate ur ice monster!!LOL....ate the durian and mango one...okok la...just tt durian dun really go well with mango...ate the dumplings also..the dumplings are huge!!LOL...the taste not bad...definitely worth the money...lol..

eat finish then went home lor...so tiring!anyway enjoyed myself yest!!heez!^^thanks ppl^^

oh ya..belle!!i cant do without dinner la..ill get gastric..lol...now ill just eat a little..so doubt i can lose 3kg this week...hahah!!anyway thansk for the tips^^cant wait to go cycling with u!!cya next wed!!^^

*loves*

2008-04-01T09:22:00.002+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S!!=D

just did a mass forwarding of the msg my paternal cousin sent to me...lol!!it woke me up...haha..i read it sleepily anddd..i thought she msged the wrong person till i scroll down..lol=.=...so funny!!LOL tt explains why i'm early today..lol....

yesterday went to darling's house to clean up his room!!oh man!!his room is soooooo messy...ok la not so messy la..at least got space to walk..hhahah...so dusty..i was sneezing away...and the dust made me itch!*imagine* anyway cleared most of the things on the floor..still got about 2 piles left?haha!!anyway giving his room a makeover!!u know like the kids central show..'groom my room'?? hahaha...yepps...well..one step at a time...it shld be ready by new yr....oopps..tt's long!hahah...anyway...cant wait to clear up the mess>.<

tmr going to seoul garden and then meeting darling at night!!yeah!!hahaha...tt's 2 days tt we're meeting up..for now only..when i start sch..hmm...nvm next time then see how hahah..

yest was talking to belle...and she told me she lost like 6kg?!?..lol..i asked her wht she did she said diet and there we go discussing about diets and learning from her how she did it..lol imgonna follow!haha..i need to lose some...no not some..lots!haha...going ecp to cycle with her next wed!pray for good weather=P heez...glad tt i still can talk to her after graduating for so long...was afraid ill lose my closest fren overtime...hahah...thank God!^^

was trying to choreograph my steps for dance..and thought about a few verses...

"Let those who love the Lord hate evil, for he guards the lives of his faithful ones and delivers them from the hands of the wicked".

Psalm 97:10

its like so applicable...it talks about faith and love at the same time...and it says we cant serve 2 masters at 1 time..if we love the lord then we willhave to hate evil..if we love evil then we cant be with the lord..isnt it true??hahah!

i think ill go with this verse...now have to think of the steps...and draw..haha!i wanna pass!lol..oh ya the name of the step would be 'love' i guess....^^ *was just thinking aloud* this is like my thinking blog...hahahah!!

im hungry=(

*loves*

2008-03-29T23:22:00.003+08:00

had gb enrolment in the morning...haha first time all combine..cool!min did a good job in commanding!haha!jia you tmr!^^then followed by rehearsal of the marching in of the colours and the worship..the worship was great^^hope tmr will go smoothly!^^and well done gb juniors!u all did well too...haha..

had bible study with steph after a long long time!heez..learnt alot from her today...felt so comforted and encouraged^^one thing i learnt...when u r in a r.s we must learn to rest in each other and serve one another^^

went for dance later in the noon...haha saw the ppl's chreographed steps..so cool!!its liek so nice and its amazing how God can speak through them and dance=)lol...and hor....i haven choreograph my steps=(i dunno how..i cant think..cant find=(ha!excuses!!no such thing as cannot la xiufeng!u must do it!i will do it by next week=P

after tt went out for dinner with darling...didnt know where to go...in the end went to raffles city to eat mos..then went to esplanade for awhile then went home..was so tired!haha...talk to joyce before leaving church and i learnt alot more things!haha..oh ya and during dance we went through 'heart of the artist' book....ha!it speaks so much!now im a happy girl again!^^its amazing how God can speak through his ppl and books!thanks God i have you!^^

my bro came back today!!!hahaha!!yeah!!^^

rights..tmr must wake up early!nitez!~

*loves*

2008-03-28T23:05:00.002+08:00

third day and last day working in church^^busy day!

cousin had to liquid the errors and fold 220 bulletin...anddd...me, pei ern, debbie and sab were rushing another amendment of 158 agm reports...ha!all in a noon's work...how great!GIRL POWER!!lol!!well done!!

dinner was delicious...worship prac was not bad...didnt end tt late...heez^^

saw sam and angel on the way home...sweet couple^^but sam still looks fierce to me..dun dare talk to him=P

anyway just some qns...

do guys have to be taller for a couple to look good?

do girls have to always be skinny to look good?

have been thinking but haven gotten the ans...i need some comfort=(

anyway tmr got gb enrolment rehearsal...wonder how the girls will do..a little worried...haven completed the drill steps tt they must know..oh well..they are just pri sch so take it easy^^just jia you!

dance too...haven choreograph the steps..i have no idea how..im always engaging in things tt i have no idea of...like being a vocalist when i dunno anything about chords and music..and joining dance when i dunno anything about choreography and steps...i've been thinking of steps..but somehow nth seems to come...ill see how things goes tmr...

some other problems bugging me which i shall not name...just pray tt God will help lighten my burden......................

*loveS*

2008-03-26T20:01:00.003+08:00

went to church to work today...actually not really work la but rather just helping to put together the whole AGM report...hahaha....it's alldone!!^^ but tmr going again..haha accompany my cousin la...heez^^ anyway going to qian xi with darling and josel at night...just go for fun..haha..

watch 'ah wang' just now...so nice!tt time my mother went to the VCD shop to check out the price...it was super ex!!! 3 sets of CDs...1 set for about $40++...so ex right???haha wait for sale lor..but the show really nice....indirectly it teaches u about the facts of life and how a person shld live to be happy lor...and like we shld be contented with whtever we have and think positive^^

parents not home...my mum brought my dad for class...well just now while on the train was thinking about my family...hmm..actually to tell the truth...there were so many times when i was so irritated with my siblings cos i thought liek why i have so many siblings and imthe eldest i have to think of them everywhere i go..even when im dating im thinking of them...i willthink of wht to buy for them and stuff..and when they were younger...they never fail to call me when im out...i was irritated then...but now when i think back...i feel so fortunate tt i have siblings that will care and for me to care...i will never be alone...i will always be accompanied by them...even if its just their presence in the house im happy^^as i think back i learnt to treasure them...but of course there will still be times when ill get irritated but all this feelings are part and parcel of life isnt it??^^and cos of them, they help me to find a good bf...cos only a good bf will treat my siblings like his own siblings and play with them and not find them irritating..of course like i said there will definitely be exceptions haha...ya...and i wanna thank God for letting me find this guy, cos he treats my siblings like his own and he doesnt get irritated everytime i talk about them or buy things for them when i go out with him...and when i have to stay home to take care of them or have to rush home to buy food for them he doesnt complain..sad is sad la..but he doesnt get angry...he even send me home..for tt im thankful^^love u lots darling!=D

dunno why i suddenly thought of all this also..but it just crossed my mind..so thought i would just write it down...^^well to those tt are still being irritated by their siblings...dunworry..the 'irritating days' wil be over soon..and soon u will love and treasure their company^^think about the good tt they have done not about the bad...then u will learn to appreciate God's gift for u^^

*loveS*

2008-03-23T14:29:00.002+08:00

WELL DONE ALAZ!!

today was the easter day dance performance...it was great!!hahah asked my sis to take video butit wasnt really clear and cos she wasnt sitted in front qutie alot of heads ended up in the camera instead of us...haha!but its ok...josel toook a video of us....so nice!!hope to see it soon!!^^
welldone ppl!
here are the ppl i wanna thank:
God-->for being our audience(im sure he's glad!)
joyce-->for teaching us the dance
debra-->for lending me her dance pants=P
juliana-->who came up with the costume
alaz members-->for all the fun we had during the practices=P
congregation--> for the cheers and encouragement
sisters(xy,xz)-->for their companion^^

lol!it sounds like a parting speech...but just felt tt they have done a great job!^^my first dance performance and it went well....hahahah!!^^continue to jia you!^^

went back home for lunch today...mum cooked^^if i could stay in church maybe ill get to see the video haha..but its ok^^

saw royston in church today..was a surprise..didnt know he's from queenstown...heez..

at night going to "S=Pop hurray concert" with my family!hope its a nice one..dun like all this crowded places actually but hahah sth new...

next sat...bro's coming home..hope he did enjoy the hillsong easter concert in brisbane i think^^

2 more weeks of holidays left=( starting school again=(wonder how all my classmates and frens have been...sure miss them lots..heez

rights...gtg^^so tired..wanna sleep*yawnz*

*loveS*

2008-03-21T23:20:00.002+08:00

woke up early int he morning at 7am...went to church at 8am...practice dance til 10am...ate breakfast will pei qi and darling till 10.45am...service till 12pm...practice dance again till 1.45pm..ate lunch till 2pm..worship ministry class till 5pm....stayed in church to talk and stuff till around 6pm....well there ends my good friday^^

went to vivo with darling in the night...long time since we sat down and talk and spend some quality time together...glad tt we have this chance^^went to the rooftop..i bought subway and he bought kfc...the subway so disgusting!like not nice de..maybe cold already tt's why...hmmm...but then we sat near the place can see the water there then eat, chat, take pics...but not in the mood to take pics..andit turned out ugly!lol!!welll....we r tired!but we did enjoy ourself la...its not tt bad afterall^^

today's good friday=)thank God for sending his son to die on the cross for our sins!^^i really appreciate them and i really do have many sins tt needs to be washed away...and i really need to be made clean!and i really thank God for this day!^^looking forward to sunday!he will rise aagin!^^Hallelujah!LOL

the dance is 99.99999999% done!wht's left is silent meditationw ith God..and we r done...jia you alaz!and thanks joyce for the encouraging message!^^

tt's all..ba....

*chatted on the phone...ended witha solemn note...wonder if things will ever be the same again*

*loves*

2008-03-18T15:13:00.003+08:00

getting sick of maple soon...cos everytime kill same monsters...nth new..then there's this patience test quest....oh man!!so horrible!lol...jump all the way up le..then come all the way down again..so terrible right!!LOL...

anyway posted 2 videos of sandart on our combined blog...had some disagreements...dun wish to comment further....im so afraid tt wht i expected would come true..im scared tt history would repeat itself...if it really does..ill just have to accept it....

next month would be a more taxing mth i guess...me returning to school soon...he's having more work in army...dun wish to talk about this further too....*no comments*

getting a new phone and a new plan today..hope dun have to change no. if not so troublesome...and hope i can get a phone tt i like^^

next dance prac on fri...after service...i dun usually go for good friday service...this yr would be the first i guess^^ bought the giordano shirt..err...it seems a little too small...shld have bought a bigger sizE!but he said it was fine=.= i think i shld believe myself.....hmmm

did al the housework today..packed up my stuff...tmr would be a free day i guess....hmm...thurs is my BTE...after tt ill be stuck for 2 more mths before i can continue with practicals...hmmm...*sad*

bro's now in australia...shld be enjoying himself ba...hahah...if i had the chance to go overseas with my frens i would wanna go to japan!!my mom said its nice!!haha iw anna see the sakura!!^^

not in a very good mood today after wht had happened....dunwish to talk any further...hope i dun get irritated withother innocent ppl.....

*loveS*

2008-03-16T16:27:00.003+08:00

was playing maple last night..trying to clear quest but impossible to clear all la..hahaha...trying to leel up but still at 60% only..hope later darling can help me play...hahaha...anyway after maple..talked to darling for quite awhile then went to sleep..slept around 2 plus woke up around 7 plus to go church...was tired at first...but then after tt okok la..hahah the sermon by peh ern was great today!!followed by cell....wanna thank mervyn and sam tan for taking time out to plan lessons every sundays despite the difference in their schedules...the cell have been great so far....everyone is participating andlearning at the same time,,its just so great to see cell alive again!^^

after cell was lunch...the food was not bad just a little cold...haha..then went for dance...approved by pastor Chang with some advice on improvements..overall he's quite supportive^^ practiced and practiced and trying hard to perfect every step as a group....still have improvements to be made but im sure we can all do it!!jia you alaz!!^^wanna thank joyce and angeline for the encoragement tt they gave throughout the many weeks of practice!!^^

just came backhome..after bath...goingout again..sendingmy bro off...he's going to australia for 2 weeks..although he at loggerheads with me most of the time but im sure gonna miss him lots when he's not around...well...take care and enjoy urself!^^ohhh and be sure to enjoy the hillsong Easter concert^^

rights gtg now...

*loveS*

2008-03-15T18:26:00.002+08:00

went to qian hu and farmart with the GB juniors...so fun...they are like so cute...we went for the mini tour at the qian hu then majority of the girls went longkang fishing...lol..they suppose to catch live fishes...some of them catch all the dead fishes..lol..and some catch so many..some only catch a few...lol...then at the farmart...they bought the animal food(actually just vegetables, corn and carrots la) to feed the hamsters, rabbits, guinea pigs, goats, frogs, tortoise...etc....the goats are like having the time of their life man..lol...so much food to eat..hahaha...we only stayed there for awhile...but its a joy to see the girls so happy la..hahaha...

anyway i knew i cant play maple on weekends....my mother is always controlling wht we do on the comp...its like always so irritating!cannot play games one meh...everytime say i wasting time playing games..so unfair lor!!tt explains why i always wanted my own comp..so she cant see wht im doing...then everything i see or do on the comp is also useless and waste of time....only whtever tt she ask me to do thenis not waste of time..i dunno why i have been easily irritated by her recently....i want care and concern but when she does tt...im so irritated and find her irritating....i dunno la....so unhappy!=(

went to lot 1 to eat lunch with darling...then went to buy the shirt for the dance...but lot 1 dun have...but darling bought his le...then i went to westmall de...got the type of shirt but no black colour=(....check out the prices of the contact lenses but all so ex...wanted to go to causeway pt and yishun tmr to get the stuff....but sending my bro off to australia in the evening so cant make it..wanna go on monday but darling cant makeit=((haiz......im so sick of this...i know i have to be understanding..he has to work....but its my holidays!after this break..i cant meet up as and when i like anymore..my sch's so far!and i dun end sch very early u see...by the time i reach back to the west itslike wht time already and my mum dun always like me to eat outside...andddd weekends are always burnt out with family, church, dance, bible study and GB......where do i find time??when i start sch...restrictions to games and the phone will start...no more late night talks...actually late night talks has ended ever since a century ago...no more games together...for 1 whole semester!=(i dunno how to tide through this period...am i too demanding or too not understanding...or wht....i dunno.....

haiz...my mind's in a mess...my life's in a mess...i need to clear up or ill keep getting irritated at others for my own messiness....going to grandma's house later...gonna miss Q again...wonder how many more times im gonna miss Q just cos of my grandma...ofcourse my grandma is important but i really wanna go for Q...am i not praying enough or is it tt i shldnt go for Q...still no common timing=((

so many things up on my mind..still waiting for a vacancy for an earlier BTT date...if not im still stuck for 2 mths++......

haven cut the materials for the dance costume also..im also confused about the measurements and stuff...but im quite sure me n ju bought the right amount of cloth..just need to come up with a way to cut the maximum of every material.....hope the costumes are fine tmr...

going to my grandma house soon..................................

*loveS*

2008-03-14T13:47:00.002+08:00

yoz ppl!

cancelled almost all my driving lessons...shld finish my BTT first la..if not im like stuck lol...and still cant find earlier date for test haiz..but i decided to take my evaluation first...in case last min can find at least i finish my evaluation le dun need to worry...pray tt God will make a date available for me dun wanna wait so long=(

anyway...yesterday went for 2nd prac lesson..keep driving round and round so tiring..and giddy...and its raining..andddd..manual so difficult=( so hard to coordinate..haiz...its hard time!

anyway got my results le..passed my SIP, sewing got B+...apparel design got C+..not so bad la..lol expected to get D or sth ahha!anyway timetable gonna be out soon i guess hope its not so packed...haiz yr 3 is like terrible..hope can cope la..looks and feels difficult to me!esp project work and stuff(im bad withprojects)....pray tt i can tide through this last yr!=(

haven been at home for quite awhile..today first whole day at home..hahah tonight not sure whether wanna meet ling...meet also dunno where to go lei...hmmm..maybe tmr ba...anwyay got no dance but got GB...oh ya and Q....hmmm haven discuss with my parents to see if my house is open...hmm..if it is it'll be great then dun need to worry like never spend time at home and stuff..i realy wanna join Q..i feel comfortable and happy inthere..the ppl are so fun^^but the last time not everyone is there lei....anyway i prayed and hope God will make a way...

mapling is fun!!level 31 le...got the self healing skill..yes!!finally can save money on potions??hahaha...thanks to ling...he trained me and stuff andhis char is still at the same level cos he focus on my char...lol..so sweet..anyway maple isnt tt bad afterall..its fun and its like spending time together also^^ its like a good 'hobby'? hahaha...but its fun playing together...anddd i dun like it when he gets angry with me just cos i dun follow him in the game=(( be more patient man!LOL...but now got new game cabal...he dun really spend much time in maple le..he just help me then let me go train myself while he go play cabal=( the only funis just the leveling up part le..haiz...but maple keeps logging out!!its irritating!!haha!!

ling updated our blog with our love story..=.= lol...so weird...actually nth much to write de la..but since he love to tell stories then he shall do it..lol..ill be the reader hahaah..and ling...dun worry about ur english..its uniquely u...lol...my english also not tt good wht...heez^^waiting for the next release..lol...

tmr going qian hu farm with the GB junior girls..hope they will have great fun...hahaha...

easter is coming up....and our progress for the dance is great...the video looks great when we r all dancing together..hahaha think joyce is touched...lol...yeah!!hope everything turns out well on tt day..will be praying^^

rights...wht else...hmmm...oh ya the chalet....hmmm....not confirm yet?2 more weeks to go..how???=(..i really want the chalet..but at the same time if so little ppl must pay so much=(

*loveS*

2008-03-10T22:58:00.003+08:00

its been a long while since i updated^^

my attachment ended on friday..managed to finish making the cards on time...took pics with the individual teachers....hahah..gonna miss them so much..didnt manage to take pics with my fav class 1D...haiz...but its ok...haha...ill always remember them ha!

anyway the chalet thing has some prob...lack of ppl...haiz....why like tt...so hard to get sth goin

=(haiz... hope things work out..anyway they going buffet tmr..but i cant make it=(..haiz...nvm ill go another time during the month haha...

ohhhh...today's driving was scary first time driving a car..drove round the circuit a few times..the engine died a few times also...lol...also found out the actual procedure of booking le..so actually not tt no time slots la..just tt cannot book yet lol...and i have to stop my prac lessons for now...must finish BTT first..haiz..must wait 2 more mths..so long=(...hope someone will wanna sell the time slots then i can book earlier=( hahaha....but its fun!!hahaha but private would be better but less practice la..hahaha

had an argument with my mother yest=( never talk to her from last night till this morning also never talk..till afternoon...feel the strain...then after tt now ok le...hahah^^

tmr got dance^^love the dance!!so nice lor!!^^

rights..gotta sleep now...

*loveS*

2008-03-06T07:58:00.004+08:00

2nd last day of attachment!!yes!!haahah..want to take pic but everyone seems so busy...and im not dressed the best today...all brown=( look like old woman..lol..but oh well..hahaha...ill just see how..if worse come to worse tmr then take lor..lol...

yest went to darling's house...watched 881...painted my nails...went out to buy dinner only to foundout tt his mother already bought subway for us....lol...but in the end gave it to his bro cos we too full..lol...we ate fried rice, noodles, takoyaki, popcorn chicken, french fries and bubble tea...of course we didnt finish everythng..lol..wanted to eat ice cream tt his dad bought...butttt...too full!!hahaha!!

joyce just put up her new stock in her shopping blog....love the tops...the colours are like my favourites...lol..but doubt i can wear la..hahaha..next time^_^

oh ya.....our combine blog add--> http://www.junhaolovexiufeng.blogspot.com/
feel free to drop by anytime but as of now...nth much yet hahaha...might be abandoning this blog and writing my post there instead if not all write here le there nth to write lol!^^

trying to finish up my work today...but my attachment teacher said its alright if i cant finish..how nice...and as usual i haven started on my card...this is so bad!hahaha..gonna get red pens today.....

army isnt good at all...haiz...its like straining our r.s in a way...we dun have time to sit down and talk throughout the week..sometimes when both of us are busy...we hardly find time to talk....and sats are also not a nice day to talk cos we too r rushing here n there...sundays..hmm..church and family...so hard...if im starting school i dun mind..at least ill be occupied with work...but its my hols....nvm its ok..things will work out^^

gtg now....

*loves*

2008-03-05T07:52:00.003+08:00

heez!my darling just made a new blog for us..so sweet!=)

anyway cancelled all my practical trainings and rebooked...seriously i save lots of money!!lucky i had parents to tell me wht to do haha...now im more organised and im clearer of wht to do..haha^^

today is my third last day in sch..haven made cards for the teachers...as expected from my constant habit of procrastination....hahaha...but i'll make today...anyway i hope to be able to finish my work within this 2 days then at least friday im free haha....forgot to bring camera!!!if got bring then can take pic with my fav class 1D=(...haiz...now i must see whether i can hold them back after school for awhile tmr or sth....hope i do remember to bring=)

fastest record time today...got changed, packed my bag and left the house in just 5 mins!!hahaha!

so tired..slept so late last night...or rather early this morning...*yawnz*

yeah!!meeting darling today in the noon...im so happy!^^

rights...gtg..

*loves*

2008-03-04T09:49:00.001+08:00

took my first basic theory lesson yesterday..the instructor so funny!!haha!!anyway he looks like one of my cousins..the way he talk also like same..so funny!~starting my first prac lesson tmr....hope can finish asap...before school starts clear as many things as possible then when school start not so stress...haha....and i book the lessons...allll peak hours..must pay so much more!!so stupid!!gotta learn how to canccel...lol!!

anyway darling made a new blog for us...so nice!=)i love the blog!although the front page is abit plain but plain is good..haha...and he say to prove tt i love the blog ask me to post a 1000 word long essay about our love story=.= hahah why dun he post then i read right lol!!!...and 1000 word isnt enough...lol...oh well...

both of us are busy with our own things..wont have much time to meet up in future...how sad=( but its ok^^

still got so much work to do!!!all the investigative work!!so sianz...haiz...

rights..gtg..

*loveS*

2008-03-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

heard tt jon came to church today....haha but too bad la not many ppl mostly go for retreat...heard ffrom ju next week he coming for cell..haha!judging from his character let's hope he can wake up lol...happy tt he's coming back to church...hope one day he will bring his gf too..haha!!God is working^^

went to church today...like a bit no mood to listen dunno why lei..like so sianz..hmmm..went to vivo with dear to eat lunch after tt...was so tired so went home after tt...tmr he going back to army le....dunno wht's his schedule also but i hope things runs smoothly..haha..everytime when things dun run smoothly he always so bad mood and stuff..dunno how to think positive one....haiz...

this coming week last week of attachment le!!yeah!haha!!wanna make cards for my teachers...also wanna buy a red pen plus some chop ar....lol...then draw their names then laminate make into book mark..hahaha like tt dun need to spend so much and got effort ma^^hope can finish doing on time la...

and im done with allthe ppt slides tt i need to do..now left the O levels ans and the investigative work!!yeah!!haha...hope can finish cos quite alot lei...also need to find health related materials for the H.econs notice board....and i wanna thank dear for the ppt slides...all the decoration everything all he do for me de...so nice=))

*loveS*

2008-03-01T19:42:00.001+08:00

well...sth is wrong with the dates and timings on my blog...hmm..im confused...but well..lots of things to write but i shall summarise^^

yest was really a special day for me..or rather for us!^^ we got together...me, him and God....I'm happy and i thank God for him although sometimes he really pisses me off like crazy but he's always there when i need someone and he never fail to make me happy even when i keep venting my anger on him....i really thank you tt God put him in my life..i thank God for helping me settle down...I'm gonna trust tt we're gonna last^^*29/02/08* it's a promise*
Joyce said sth at dance today tt made me change my perspective of r.s....i always believed tt God has planned someone for each and everyone of us and if this r.s doesnt work out it means tt he's not the right one...but my thinking is actually not tt right after i heard wht joyce said..she said tt God has set criterias for us to consider when looking for our partner and we make the choice ourselves...which i think is quite true..we are given a choice..we are always given a choice...and if we make a choice we shld be responsible for it..God's words are criterias that we christians shld follow so naturally we will find a partner tt God is please with..well tt is if we follow his criterias closely.....thank you joyce^^i look at things from a different point of view now=)

sth happened in school...which upsetted 1 of the teachers..a relieve teacher...i feel sorry..i can actually see tt she is trying her best to teach and do her job well...she's trying her best to help in each and every way she can...she's cheerful, outgoing, patient and forgiving..but misunderstanding do take place..and usually kind ppl get taken advantage of....now she's accused by a kitchen helper tt she is rude to her..and she is quite upset about this..when before tt her r.s with tt kitchen helper was so close...they could share food and talked for an hour....but now..not even a word....how has things turn out so bad i dunno but im sure its a misunderstanding..haiz!it doesnt pay to be kind sometimes...

finished 4 ppts yest.....phew..still got quite alot to do but ill try to finish..i also wanna make thank you cards for my teachers before i leave the school..this week's my last week of attachment!!holidays!!^^ hope i can submit my work on time..ha!

today's dance was great!learned many new steps..i have to draw the pattern book like mad...given tt i didnt update the past many patterns..lol...im so happy i got the chance to dance...it's so nice!^^in the morning led the songs during GB and the drill...practicing for enrolment...taught them sanang diri, sadia, ke kenan lurus and pandan kehadapan pandan...next week will be salute and receiving of awards...very big group...very time consuming..but im glad im able to contribute in 1 way or another^^

dad went for bone infusion and lung scan yesterday...so he wont be feeling tt well for the next few days..and the lungs and liver werent infected but the scan shows tt his back bone and pelvic bone is degenerating which means it cant support him for long le...im so scared...and my mum...she has super high blood pressure...158/112....im so afraid she might get a stroke..her shoulder hurts badly but this morning she is quite alright le...ill just try to help her as much as i can....im so afraid...but all i can do is just pray='(

rights...gtg now...

*loves*

2008-02-29T07:38:00.000+08:00

3 days of MC...swollen right eye...back in school but eye still a little painful...hope today is a relaxing day...last day of the second last week of attachment..there's welcome n farewell dinner tonight but im not going...have to wait for the washing machine man!ha!our washing machine keeps breaking down!*dreads*

mum's right shoulder is hurting!dad's going for bone infusion today and will be down with fever for the next few days=( hope i can get my driving license fast then at least can fetch them to and fro from work or doctor if they need to=( haiz.....hope they get well soon..im not ready to take over their role=( pls Lord make my parents well again!='(

dance tmr...oh man..if only i have like a dance room?lol...so i can like practice..hahamy house so cramp.....but well ill just make do..no worries=D

GB enrolment practice tmr...still not sure of the commands lei..how to tell them i only know the simplified ones=(haiz..never thought ill be in GB again...tt's why didnt really pay much attention to everything done in GB=(regret it lots..tt's why u never know wht the future holds so make the most of every opportunity given..whether u like it or not...hmmmm....going for BOTC in august or semptember....over 18 cannot be flag barrier=( thought tt i could try haha..but its ok..it might be a blessing in disguise=D

special and big decision to make but i just cant get the ans..i prayed but nth happened...maybe its just not the right time?i dunno..somehow i dunno when it is God who is talking and when it is not...well its hard la..but i believe if it's God's will he will not let u miss wht he is saying he will try means and ways to let u know wht his will is...he works in many ways!=) so i trust........and have faith........

last week during dance...they were also talking about this issue...just wanted to share a short para on wht the devotional material said...
" when you find that one of your favourite and strongly held views clashes with the 'heavenly vision', DO NOT begin to debate it. If you do, a sense of personal right and property will merge in you-things on which Jesus placed no value". not good with words today so shan't explain further..ill just let u, readers conclude with ur own conclusion..just a little sharing=)

rights...its the end of the week...and 16 more hours before the end of the leap day..haha...special day it is...maybe i should go watch 'the leap years'..lol!*lame*

*loves*

2008-02-27T09:35:00.000+08:00

chinese songs...my bro is suddenly crazy over chinese songs which is out of the norm...hmmm...but i love it..haha now i can listen to chinese songs while doing work!=D

reports....not done yet..and the submission date is??TODAY!!by 5pm to be exact..so i approx have about 7++ hours left...but tt includes the travelling time..so effectively i only have about 5 hours more to go...

eye has been swollen for more than 3 days now...it was painful last night like it was gonna burst...haiz..but i guess its clearing..im happy=D the medicine work although it kinda stinks...luckily its caps not tabs....

disappointment fills the air when ppl dun keep their promises and finds excuses for it...just whtever~ tt's all i think i can say.

going to school later but doubt will meet anyone cos im going earlier...hmmm...

dance pattern book..i gotta borrow from someone and get sth done now tt my SIP load is no tt heavy...hmm...

haiz...had a bad night last night...im sad=(

rights gtg...

*loves*

2008-02-25T07:55:00.000+08:00

just heard about the break yesterday...its a yr..and it takes alot of love n sacrifices for a couple to last for a yr....haiz...its so sad to see it just end like tt...they still love each other but just cant get along..or rather cant find a good time to talk and even if there is time to talk..cant compromise...

i think tt in r.sboth parties do play a part in whtever outcome the r.s might have...both parties have to be responsible...pride must never be in b/w...emotions musnt get in the way..if u feel sad show it..if u love him show it...dun hide it to urself..there shldnt be any secrets b/w a guy n a girl in r.s n that includes revealing ur true emotions and feelings...there are many more things about r.s tt i can write here but wht's the use...its up to individual..and i can never write out everything......its so sad to see them in this manner....wish they were alright..first time i can see through love in her....

there were times when she was so happy telling me how she went to his house and planned a surprise birthday party...how he fetched her home even when he was so dead tired..how they went for church and cell group meetings together...how they got along with each other's parents...how they went out taking pictures and shopping....how they spent time together...why did it have to end like this....

haiz...if u all cant give in then let go ba...its not good to hold a string too tightly or it will snap...till then..even remaining as frens would be a problem...both of u have got to calm down, think and talk it through and most importantly pray about it.....nth is impossible...will be praying for u too...

*loves*

2008-02-24T19:03:00.000+08:00

last night was..hmm half bad half good?...we quarelled again over some stupid reasons...but we're ok now...oh well...im always angry...how bad! but everything went well after tt...

this morning woke up with swollen eyes..or rather swollen right eye...but still went to church...wanted to stay and help int he kids church but i feel so so tired n needed to close my eye...so i went to the cry room instead...anyway...the church's new PA system is so cool!!!haha!!anyway yuppz..i slept for awhile...then had quite a bad headache...then after the communion went home straight...slept throught the noon again..now just finish bathing...waiting for dinner..how great hor to wait for dinner instead of preparing dinner...heez...so fortunate!well have my parents to thank=)

gotta start on my report but dunno how...got the info but its just the starting part..once im started..its easier to keep the ball rolling..but..how to start??jhaiz...genius amanda lost the ppr n i had to type out everything for her!haha!

well 2 mroe weeks to end of attachment...half happy half sad...nowadays my feelings all half half one..haha!wanna make cards for my teachers..as for the students..hmm well i do have my fav classes n pupils...but...how do i give them sth...

2008-02-22T20:54:00.001+08:00

had a super super long meeting today after school...4 hours straight with only 20mins break in between..only the first half hour relevant to me..the next 3 n half hours are like the school's stuff which none of them actually appeals to me just tt i see the way teachers work n stuff....kinda an eye opener=)now tt i know sth about the sch i can start on my report..i really have to thank God for this..to be truthful...i didnt even pray i just merely thought about it..i was thinking of some solution cos i really dunno how to start my report n stuff cos im like suppose to talk about roughly how the sch works n stuff...but now i know..so really thank God!!=D

had a really bad time in class today..got so pissed with the class..shouted at them..and felt so bad when i pointed out a girl to the teacher tt she was talking..and the teacher threatened to call her parents..then another class was noisy....so i went over n when i came back she looked like she just cried...am i bad?i though tt was wht teachers always do..like hardening hearts n disciplning studentS?wht happens if they hate me n get angry at me?wht shld i do?haiz...well...ill think about it like 2 yrs later...

i have a super good ST...she gives me tips on how to handle the class n tells me her own experience as a CST student..she doesnt expect much of me..and she puts herself in my shoes as a student..she allows me to make mistakes and encourages me...she smiles to make me feel better whenever im nervous...she points out my mistakes gently and acknowleges and praise me for the work tt i've done...Thanks God again for such a great attachment teacher for he has answered my prayer!=)2 more weeks n im done with SIP..im sure gonna miss the students as well as the teachers=( but well eveyrone has to move on..i have finished this phase of poly..now is the remaining yr and im done!jia you!=D

MC king died not long ago...lydia sum followed after..both comedians...good actors and actresses....such a pity...haiz..i saw lydia sum's last pic..she was so skinny!seriously i think she looks nicer when she's fat!she's such a joker n entertainer n a nice person when she's around..esp. in the show 'living with lydia' well both of them will be missed greatly!=

edison chen came back to hong kong...spoke in front of reporters...and he's like leaving the entertainment circle...and i tell u his english is super super good!love his accent!ha!i just dun understand why some ppl must be so mean to post the pics online..whtever they do is their business seriously....those ppl who posted it seriously are good for nth cos its totally uncalled for.....disappointment!well....not my business also....talk so much for wht..

anyway my dad is getting sicker...haiz..my mum too..1 day im gonna lose both of them n how am i gonna survive with my bro n sis when all have diff character all have their own way of thinking all have diff ways of doing things when all cant get along...and i too have my own life...im like so worried can..haiz..just pray tt God wont take them away soon...haiz..im like...dunno wht to do..all i can do is just study hard and do the housework as much as i can?n try to make them happy?='( pls dun take them away from me..i still need them as my pillar of strength='(

tmr got no GB..its anniversary in the evening..for 2 hours i think..at night going shopping with jh..noon got dance...die la haven draw my dance pattern book..hope joyce dun check tmr lei...haiz..i think i better stop procrstinating!

anyway just viewed joyce's shopping blog...the clothes are super nice!!the key chains are super cute!!and the prices are super reasonable!!!i really really wanna buy!but given my size..i dun thinkits appropriate ba...all those clothes only for skiny ppl wear then nice la=( haiz...how i envy those tt no matter how they eat also wont get fat de....so lucky=( i think im like destined to be like tt forever le la..now the most imp thing is my confidence level which i dun think i have for now..haiz...*depressing*
anyway for those who wanna pop by her shopping web here's her add:
www.al-joyous.com
--> sorry joyce, i just thought tt the clothes tt u have are really super super nice n unique so i wanna share witht he rest!hope u dun mind..heez=)

rights..tt's it...report time!!=D

*loveS*

2008-02-21T09:46:00.001+08:00

phew...practical is over...so tiring!!feel like sleeping..the whole place so messy..haha!but their cupcakes are nice!=))i made them too...i made 9...haha!
im kinda missing you..thinking about u going back to army makes me sad~
they are a fun group of ppl..but the teacher's method abit messy thats why they dun understand..but oh well......im just on attachment...not fit to comment too much..then alot of last min..make the auntie work so hard...some more she old already..so poor thing man=(
even when we cant meet today i already feel like there's nth to do...
today must do some more lesson plan arrr...1G1..teaching tmr..but its a small class n they are cute so not to worry haha!and the last week of attachment im suppose to finish everything on the to-do list!!oh man!!tt's the most hectic week for me!haha!
wht's more when u go back to army..somemore its during my hols=(
well 2 more weeks and its over!!im back to being a student!but of course hols first la!!heez~cant wait for the chalet!!haha!
i have nowhere else to write so i have to write here n risk getting seen..hmmm..
so many more things to write but lazy la...hah!like tt will do...so yuppz..
just hope he doesnt sees this la...and well...im seriously gonna miss u lots!!
cya!=)
thanks for always being there!=)jia you for army!must become fitk?then u'll look taller!haha!=P
*loveS*

2008-02-20T08:17:00.001+08:00

oh man!today is my first official lesson...as in i did teach many times previously but this time is really self-run n will be graded..andddd..this lesson is planned...abit scared though...haiz...there will belike 3 teachers observing..2 are supposedly teachers teaching tt class n the other 1 is my ST..hope everything runs well..hope the students co-operate=P

yeah!!chalet~!i think its gonna be super fun although i think tt not alot of things to do..but still can la..at most we watch movie..and play cards..anyway half the time already gone to bbq, escape and wild wild wet le..haha!hope it'll be fun!anyway too bad guys cant come haha!if not it'll be more fun..can play truth or dare hahaha!!!anyway reallllyyy looking forward to it!!=D

waa..still got 2 more lesson plan..1 of them half way done...the food items also almost done....hope things turns out well on fri too...anddd still got my SIP report!how to even start??haiz..i think i gotta start writing soon if not last min again i gotta kick this habit man!!

Oooo and my cousin n bro both go RP...my bro got into civil aviation which is wht he wanted..lucky him...and my cousin got into supply chain management i think..well..all the best ppl....hope u excel in poly kk?its a new beginning!=D 1 step towards ur future!jia you!!!^^

talked to pris last night...haha..talk for almost an hour..cool hor...so long never talk le still got so much to talk..lol...i was like so afraid tt we would like become strangers..but yeah!!frenship is coming back!heez^^ jia you for ur exams hor!=)

rightsss....cya!

*loves*

2008-02-19T10:02:00.000+08:00

not so tired today but still tired...had only 1 period today..actually got more la but i dun wanna go obsevre le..all the same thing de...and i need to do my lesson plan..haiz..so confusing man allt he sec. 1 classes doing diff topics...but already confirm which class la...then mustpass up lesson plan by today some more..then must go buy the stuff for the classes....

yest watched ah long pte ltd....not bad la..but i think just follow law nicer lei...just tt this show is funny cos of the way lee guo huang talk only...n fann wong is super cool!LOL...k la..not bad la..heez...

anyway started playing maple....getting a litte addicted..actually just addicted to the leveling up only haha...but its fun la!=D

alrights...more tonight=)*yawnz*

*loveS*

2008-02-18T12:16:00.001+08:00

super tiring day!*yawnz* just uploaded some pics on friendster..later still must do lesson plans..haiz

had 2 periods in the morning..not too bad...trying hard to stay awake though...then 3 periods after recess...went through corrections with them then went back to staffroom...later dun think going for assembly...just skip 1 time shld be ok ba...*yawnz* dun feel like going home but i guess home is still the best place to sleep....*yawnz*

lesson plans are so hard..dunno wht to write also...or rather too lazy=X

still must start on my SIP report...next wed due...then next wed must go back sch to hand up=X hope can finish on time n hope i pass!*yawnz*

yest the v day thing was a success!!so happy!!the roses n candles were enough..everything went well..the explanation was alright n sam tay kinda praised us!heez!=)) looking forward to more of this..so great fun n satisfaction to see everything done properly and everything just runs so smoothly....i think wht we all need is the confidence to always take the first time and make wht seem impossible possible...of course always with the help of God!thanks God for answering my prayers=))

*loves*

2008-02-16T21:13:00.001+08:00

last night was super fun after campus discussion went out with yani,lk,zuzi,zimah and amanda to celebrate v day..super fun!heez..went to vivo..ate at the hawker centre first..then went to the roof top then amanda had to leave...so not many pics with her...then the rest of us went up to the roof top and played nerds..i taught them how to play but they were cluless so in the end we played this er...some snap game..haha..then we took alot alot of pics...so fun!!i think we had more fun taking pics!!hahahaha..left at around 11..reached home at 12 lol..so late!!and my mom never scold..so weird..then went to bathe then completed 2 batches of candles...then was so tired!!slept le this morning had to wake up at 7.30 for gb... finish teaching them the basic drill but a little mixed up towards the end...phew..now there are some kinda ready for the camp i guesS?heez...anyway then went to church continued doing the remaining candles...then ju n brian came le...then we cut and paste and tie and file and wash...until dance started at 2.30...then half way through suddenly brian said they finished doing everything le..so efficient right???super fast!!lol and it was like so nicely done??its like 'wow' la..love them loads man was still worrying how to finish it on time lol..all ready heez...anyway for tmr ill try to write a speech for ju la..so she can at least take tt as a guide while doing the talking..^^

went home after tt for dinner..steamboat..ok la quite full...first time i at least had a little time for myself la..heez...

anyway on v day..i was actually with jh de, wanted to share but a little inappropriate...heez..didnt really celebrate but rather he was studying and i was rushing the candles...went for dinner then he said he needed the toilet then when he came back he gave me a rose..fake one of course...but i dun mind..actually i agree with ju..fake one better than real ones...at least can last la...haha...at home i got like 1 cupboard for all the things he gave me..and tt rose is going there..heez...actually he's kinda sweet la..although we not together and his budget is tight he still went to the extend of buying me a rose and made a huge 'heart' candle for me..so nice of him..and er...i didnt get him anything lol...

but well i treasure it doesnt mean anything la to put it crudely...im just appreciating as a fren pls dun get the wrong idea....ha!=D but i do appreciate everything he has done la...he's going back to army..well gonna miss him..noone talk on the phone with me till late late le...haiz...save phone bill la haha!

alright i gtg do my work...got 3 lesson plans to hand up next week...im gonna teach!!=D

*loveS*

2008-02-15T12:15:00.000+08:00

phew~ another week is over..going back to sch for campus discussion later then going out with my darlings later..^^have been planning since the first campus discussion..which is like 3 weeks ago..heez!=Ddunno where we going yet but most prob the beach?=)

anyway lessons were alright this week..but the last class, 1E is a handful!so noisy!dun listen!my voice so soft..their voices drowned mine...talking during test..haiz..luckily im on attachment so got another teacher help me control if not ill die! a phone was confiscated...i wanted to ask them to see me after sch and warn them and then return the phone to them...but then the other teacher stopped me=( she is not returning the phone..she is only returning the sim card which is the sch's way of handling things la...its like i understand how tt boy feel lor..i also like tt when mr ow confiscated my phone wht...i will never forget tt time i was so afraid!i couldnt pay attention for the whole lesson..haiz...luckily he returned it to me...now the teacher is handling it..i got no say..haiz..not i dun wanna help la..if i had a say ill return la but of course with a warning..hmmmm...sometimes im wondering if im not fierce and strict enough..wondering if i can survive in this industry lol!if i go back to fairfield then good le la...at least got teacher to give me advice...pls God help me get backt o fairfield...pls ans my prayer=(

alright...gotta rush home..put my stuff then go to tp le.....hope today's fun!=D

*loveS*

2008-02-13T09:03:00.000+08:00

tiring morning...luckily i had a quite early night last night or ill dread the rush...haha...well..slept in the bus and alighted at the next bus stop..fortunately it wasnt tt far...forgot to bring wallet..but luckily i had a coin pouch full of coins...just topped it up yest...how co-incidental!!ha!

surprisingly, my would wasnt bad at all...i wasnt angry/irritated when i forgot my wallet...i wasnt uptight/anxious tt i got down at the wrong bus stop....i wasnt disturbed by the rush in sch......thank God for giving me patience man or ill be like so irritated by now..and ill be so grouchy=P thank God!!

anyway good luck for ur exams jh..if u ever happen to read this befor ur ppr...haha!

the principal gave a 'short' speech today...and she said sth which i think makes a little sense....she said..'in everything there is a process, so everything is a learning experience whether u do it well or not...and only after u have gone through the process will u achieve ur goal' so well i guess...SIP is my process...and im on the way in becoming a teacher!!!LOL!!ok im 'teacher-crazy'...lol..

alright...gtg now..

*loves*

2008-02-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

oh man!im so so tired!haiz..tried doing ppt today but im so drained

marked test pprs..and i confused myself with all the students' ans and the mark allocation...hmmm...brain's not thinking..so keeping calm and thinking isnt gonna help...well it doesnt matter now cos in the end i still managed to finish...but just hope it is done properly?haiz..

went to church..studied with jh...he helped me with the ppt quite abit la...then we studied..or rather i studied with him....until im even more tired=( but well just hopes he does well for his final sem...-->jh...u better do well hor...at least pull up ur GPA by abit la...dun give up...try to remember as much as u can la...and pls pls pls pray before ur start ur ppr hor...it will surely work de=)pls remember!ha!ill pray for u too=)jia you!!=D

tmr 6 periods in a row...sleeeeeepppyyy!waiting for my hair to dry...alright ill stope here for now...tmr's another longggg day...or rather this week everyday is a long day and this week is a lonngggg week=( looking forward to fri...

*loves*

2008-02-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

just popped by my cousin's blog and her blog is cool...its short and sweet and its like a says-it-all kinda thing...and im like writing essays after essays...lol..

today was busy!6 periods in a row..how tiring!

went to pizza hut then to church...woahh pizza hut is now like a fav eating place....ate lots!oopps=X

finished cutting the wrapping ppr for the candles..*satisfied*

tmr is another busy day..gotta finish ppt slides, lesson plan..anddd...another part of the V day project!tired tired tired~

well..tt's all now...is tt short enough?lol..pics will come in some other time...dun really feel like putting..wanna see lots of pics???pop by my friendster=)

i'm 'glitterbaby'^^

*loves*

2008-02-11T09:01:00.000+08:00

yoz ppl!!long time no see le..haha!!CNY celebrations are over..back to life in school and lots of work...haha!

on new yr's eve had celebrations in sch...it was nice...mostly dance..and the students danced well!!haha!then the P and VP were giving out oranges outside the staff room...i took 1 pair..then i went to the toilet i came back they gave another pair =.= lol..then during the concert, the students gave each teacher 1 pair..so altogethe ri got like 3 pairs of oranges in my bag??lol..then after tt wanted to go back fairfield to visit..and at the same time fetch my sis..but on the way there my sis told me the teachers all going home le..so nvm lor..go also no point la..haha..then i went to westmall to meet jh..wanted to buy some clothes too...ate burger king...haha..now i know wht he means by 'when u r a student, eat like a student'. that means eat only student's meal la. cos after tt when adult le..no more students meal le..lol...aiyooo...anyway bought a white top from bossini....quite nice la..but abit ex....hahahaha..but i love it..thanks to jh recommendation..lol..then went home...clean the house then went to grandma house...then my aunt keep telling me wht teacher must set good example so indirectly telling me i shld start losing weight=.= CNY eve tell me like tt super demoralising lor!!!>.<>

on the first day of CNY didnt go visiting just went to grandma house the whole day again..cos this yr my dad quite weak le la..easily tired so didnt go lor..if not usually will go de..so alot alot alot lesser hongbao..haha!but its ok la..then in grandma house just eat, watch movies, eat, sleep awhile..then went home bathe..then went back then eat again then watch tv again...lol super boring la!well but at least the whole family is together la..haha..

on the second day more fun la!LOL...hmm went to min hui's house in the noon...ate spaghetti!her mother's spaghetti sauce is super super nice!!haha!i love the spaghetti..the tom yam bee hoon also not bad..then painted 2 of my aunt's nails..lol..then played nerds with my cousins...then took some candid pics..then went to eat dinner...hahaha..dinner was sumptous!!!so much food!!let's see..there's steamed chicken, roasted wings, seaweed chicken, green vegetables, vegetable stew, sea cucumber stew, 2 pots of curry, sambal prawn i think...ngohhiang...and er...Oooooo..still got my mother cook the pig's trotters!!that was nice..all the food was nice!!haha!but of course i had to limit myself..anndddd im so so sosooooo happy!!cos 2 of my aunts said i lost weight!!!LOL..so cool!!im like so happy can!!LOL...then er..after dinner we watched tv again...then played nerds all the way..3 rounds also i won..heez!=)but it doesnt matter...wht matters is fun!!haha..i think they are the only group of ppl whom i can play nerds with and its so sososo fun!!haha..then after tt got family photo taking!my uncle is soooo funny!LOLreally had lots of fun!!didnt wanna go home=X

anyway on the 3rd day, went kbox with jh in the morning..so cool...just love singing!heex...then went to guoyang's house...so fun!made new frens...played blackjack...ate steamboat..the steamboat time was fun..all the jokers..heex..then we chat and played cards and took pics...and suppose to go to kelvin's house..then some wanted to watch movie..but me n jh stayed so far we had to leave le...so didnt know wht was their plan later on..but wanted to go kelvin's house play mahjong too=( so hard to find some ppl tt enjoy mahjong and not those expert kind..if not stress man!haha...but well no choice la...had great fun!hope we can meet again=D

on the 4th day went to church in the morning..and sam tan told us about his proposal on monday!so sweet!!he is romantic man!haha he went through all the extend to plan and now he is getting married!!haha!next yr jan 1 preferably..he said la..haha...then hmm..suppose to go to his house but cant cos i had to go to uncle's house...so went home with joel instead cos he needs to go to his aunt's house..haha..my uncle's house is super nice!!everything so 'disney' haha and got CNY mood...so clean and like comfy..haha...the tv is huge..the sound system is great..watched quite alot of movies...then the food is nice too!!as usual they gambled..the adults 1 side..children 1 side..lol..and ya i lost money!!!all my coins!!and my sis' coins!!lol..bad luck man!!no la..i dun believe in such stuff...maybe God teaching me a lesson not to gamble..lol..although its just abit of money but heartpain lei...altogether i lost about $10?? sianz right....hahaha!anyway still had fun la....went home quite late slept at 1...this mornign so tireddd!!but still had to go sch..meeting jh later to do the candles!=) hope can finish la...anyway..this is super super super long..i gotta stop now!today is a long long day for me man....=( well...no choice..heex....alright...cya!=D

*loveS*

2008-02-05T08:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday too tired to write...yawnz...now also tired la actually ahha

anyway...after sch i went home..eat n bathe then left for westmall to buy more moulds, construction ppr, wrapping ppr and lighter...hmm spent about$50 on candles for 100 ppl...its not alot right?plus effort put in?then suppose to go to church..but hui wen forgot the flowers so we were suppose to meet at her house..but hmm we need a place where we can have fire available u see..but cant use their stove..so in the end went to his house...

so long since i've been to his house..his family so quiet le...last time so noisy de haha..his parents seemed happy to see me..esp when i see the smile on his mother's face...lol..anyway we stayed in the room most of the time to do the candles..so diffiult!!everywhere all full of wax..we even melted 1 of the plastic mould...then the tea light candle holder caught fire..the fire was like scary...i was like traumatized!!the last thing tt i ever want in my life is get burned alive u see tt's why i was scared..it's painful!!LOL!!but of course managed to put it out in time if not i wouldnt be sitting here and typing...haha!yuppz...so far we started making since...let's say 7?ended at 11?and we only made 21 candles...some of them not acceptable so threw away haha!is tt fast?dunno la but it sure is difficult..we spent so much time just to get everything going..and thanks to his wires or we would be totally drained just holding the candles and waiting for the wax to melt..haa!it was great fun!the hearts turned out not toobad...well at least i liked it..haha!!maybe tonight gonna continue again....

during tt time..sth cropped up at hui wen's house..they dunno how to make the flowers and make le the flower too small...so they were thinking of buying the actual rose..but its gonna be more ex i guess..given the fact tt valentine's day is approaching in a week's time..and fake flowers were proposed which i think is even more ex...well we only collected $2 from the youth and we r buying the fake flowerS?hmmmm...actually i dunno why the sudden change but i just wanna state my pt of view....no offence if anyone happens to read this...

i feel tt whtever gift we give to God as long as it's from the heart it doesnt matter..just like the pplwho give golds and silver and the lady who only gave 2 copper coins..God said who gave morE?the lady is his ans...why?cos she gave with a heart...she gave the best she could, she gave all she had...pls dun deny the fact tt money is always an issue when it comes to planning activites and stuff....budget budget and more budget...less budget more things done is always the so called motto...but we all went well with tt little budget tt we have...we were happy although there were some hiccups along the way but in the end..everyone was satisfied..why?cos its the thought tt counts..its the happiness tt we bring to God tt counts not the ppl...but now?we r gonna BUY the roses just to make the youth think tt their $2 is worth it?are their views more important than God's?REMEMBER!God doesnt look at things man looks at...he wouldnt mind if the rose is small or wht..as long as there is effort...he will be happy..isnt tt true?seriously im not for the idea of changing fromt he hand made ones to the ones tt are bought....why?cos wht's the point?we can just remind the youths to get a stalk of flower and write a love note..atached it to the flower and put it on the alter during offering..why must we even buy or order for them??yaa..its true..they wont appreciate in the end they will forget...but again is man's view so important?wht matters is God remembers we ever did this for him right?wht matters is God can feel tt we love him right?wht matters is we want him to know tt we remember him on this special day right?isnt this true?so why the debate about changing flowers?hand made flowers are more meaningful or sth tt is bought?when u give gifts to ur bf/gf...DIY stuff is better n more treasured or sth tt is just simply bought from the shop?u know it..u sure know it...now the next qn is why?why are we the ones doing it and not the youths?flowers are alreadyhard enough to make...candles are many times harder....so how are we suppose to teach them how to make when combined activity is not encouraged cos of the noise level and when there is limited space in the church?how are we supposed to teach them how to make?wouldnt tt take up to a day?we thought of this before..angeline suggested this before....but pros and cons..pros n cons..pros n cons...pros=its more meaningful cos its made by them to God and their $2 is worth it...cons=how many of us are available to teach?how long is it gonna take?where are we gonna do it?the $2 is a love offering to God..if they are not satisfied then dun give. i know i have no right to say all this...i also know im a coward, i dun dare to say or bring this up in front of others when there is a discussion why?just cos i dun wanna hurt the frenship tt we have between us...how else am i suppose to get my point across?i seriously dun see the point of debating. anyway just for ur info i dun wan credits...it can even go uncredited....all i want is to see a heart for God..a genuine heart for God. there is so many ppl, u cant pls everyone but there is only 1 God..and u definitely can please him.
*BE A CHRIST-PLEASER NOT A PEOPLE-PLEASER!!!*

sorry for any offence taken=))everything's fine now..im just reliving back wht i felt yesterday...ha!jul ill help u with the flowers=)and dun worry ppl the candles will be there^^its going well so far=)alright tt's all i've got to say....back to work!=)

*loves*

2008-02-04T08:49:00.000+08:00

wooohh..the weekend was busy...so tiring!

on friday after i came back from camp, i slept awhile and was late for worship practice...lol..woke up at 7.05 when the practice is at 7.45..reached at 8pm!!lol..terrible..haha!!

then went home quite late..next day got GB left home at 7.30am...then after GB got bible study then after tt got dance...all the way till evening..then evening somemore go grandma house..then father and the rest play mahjong then i was so tired i sleep until like so uncomfortable theni wanted to go home..by the time i reached home already 11 plus le..then after tt got some stupid prob la..haha..then slept aroudn 1 plus..anyway to add on..the dance was great..haha!luckily joyce didnt scold me for forgetting the steps and for not drawing the patterns..i gotta draw this week..and gotta ask pris for the booookk...lol!=D our next performance is good friday!!=D

anyway on sunday morning had to wake up early as i was the vocalist.....the worship was not bad..but the video like made me emotionally unstable!lol..super sad!i would have cried if i were watching it at home...='( anyway the cell was great tooooo...went througha little of the book of daniel and the history of people starting all the way from adam and eve...interesting..ha!after church went to ikea to eat....eat so much lor!!!i drank the soup of the day..the bread was super nice!haha..then er..at the chicken leg with swedish herbs...the carrot is not nice!yucks!then also ate the princess cake!!heez^^then went downstairs to buy candles for the V day thing...then went all around to find cookie cutter but dun have...then asked 1 of the lady..she suggested liek NTUC/shop n save/sheng siong...etc...so we took a bus to tbp first went to the NTUC...saw a cutter!super nice!got words some more..actually its not a cutter la its to make chocolate de...but quite ex..then we were thinking go somewhere else n see first la...then we took a trainto sheng siong...dun have..took a train back tobukit batok..ate macdonalds!!haha then went to 1 of the shops to check..dun have..but bought some ribbons though haha..then err...went to westmall's shop n save..found a plastic chocolate mould!!got about 8 moulds altogether...so we bought it!!ahha..then went to the NTUC at the mrt..dun have=( so we had to make do with tt..then we went home to try....took so long..lol..and finally it worked..tried diff methods la..luckily he's there lor if not i dunno wht to do..haha!oh ya btw..the he is jh la...haha!ya lor..then he going to church today also..but before tt we going westmall to buy some more..and also some construction ppr...=)) so funnnn!!hope we can use the fire on the stove..haha!min hui n hui wen went to jp to buy the roses...hope ju can come then can teach them...cos i also not very very sure how to make,..haha!hope everything turns out well then we can finish by next next sunday!=)Thank God for providing!^^

today not a very long day...only 4 periods..im like so hungry now!!lol..later gonna eat with miss chng...heez...ok la..gtg le...nth to say le for the time being..haha

*loves*

2008-02-01T14:31:00.000+08:00

yoz ppl!!im back from the camp!!it was fun!except for some discovery about diff ppl's character tt really irks me!apart from tt..everything's fine!=))

its a 3DN thing..teachers..sleep in air con rooms on beds while students sleep on open air wooden platforms..with shelters over their heads of course..venue= changi...lots of planes flying every moment..even at night..haha!some planes are so loud..while some are like quite quiet la..ahaha!had to do guard duty=(..i did it with ms ho..3.00am-4.30am..what a weird timing lor!haiz..then lights out always around 11 plus..so sleep awhile then must wake up le..then after tt after duty..sleep again till 7 plus..waa...first night still ok..quite interesting..second night was tiring man!cos the second day was filled with games!!yea!

talking about the games..i tried the high elements with 3H/3I...then the dragon boating and kayaking too..they are so nice ppl they just make me feel like welcomed into their class...so nice!i just love NT students...althought their behaviour might be a little bad but they have better so called 'public relations' than any other classes k!just by judging like im an attachment teacher...then no students except the teachers talk to me..then only the 3H/3I ppl make me feel welcome...they r nice ppl...but well..some nasty ppl's attitude just pissed me off a little on the second day...i only can say these la..

*if a student is bad so are the teachers and if the teachers are bad so will the students be*
dun wanna talk much about this..andi feel tt there's nth wrong in me saying this cos this is really wht i feel and this is my blog..i say wht i like..so if happen tt anyone sees this then so be it la....whtevr...
tried not to let this incident affect me too much...feel quite ok now..haha!

anyway still got other activities like rock climbing, abseiling and flying fox but didnt try those...not much time la..haha..but still had fun!had super bad sunburns!!super super bad!!its like my whole arm is red like red apples!!terrible..its painful!=(

campfire at night was fun...class performance as usual...then students will sabo the teachers as usual...and then the MC is super high as usual..but i muct say this bunch of instructors are good man!!they are so enthu about things..and even if they are tired they will not show it i guess..heez=)nice bunch of ppl!=)

going for this camp makes me miss sec. sch a whole lot!i miss my batch's NT ppl...they are also a fun lot..miss them lots man!haha!miss the sec 2 n 3 camps too!!so fun!!=D

anyway the last day nth much la..we slept alot haha then debrief then went back le lor..heez=))so tired!glad tt camp is over haha!kinda enjoyed myself!=)

alright gtg..cya!=)

*loves*

2008-01-30T09:04:00.000+08:00

omg!!just now i was like in the toilet plucking my white hair..then suddenly the principal come in..then i like suddenly dunno wht to say i just smile then she went into the cubicle..then before she comes out i quickly went out of the toilet...lol!so dumb!i think she must be thinking wht in the world am i doing to my hair..haha!!so paiseh man!!=P

talking about white hair..its not tt im old but rather my hair texture causes my hair to turn, brown then gold then white eventually..so i often have white hair and i cant stand it..so i just pulled it out..i saw 4 strands just now..but short ones..so hard to pull..only managedd to pull 2 strands..lol.the other 2 still 'young' so nvm..let them grow older first then pull!!LOL

yeahhh!!im going for camp!!sec. 3 level camp!so fun!!i think..hahah...im like on attachment and i can go for camps...its like cool...miss chng finally can go for the camp le!haha!!mr khoo allow her to go..he's so nice!haha..i got company le..lol!!cos i suppose to follow mdm zheng..but she got her own class so like not very nice everytime go disturb ma..heez^^im like so excited!i just started packingmy bag last night at 9 plus..ha!hope i brought everything..anyway im still in singapore..just tt going changi tt side..so well not so worried even if i forgot to bring sth la..haha!!=D hope i can play and enjoy the activities like the students!heez!haven been to camp for quite awhile le..now waiting for 11.30...the bus only like sets off at 11.30...haha!long way to go man!=))

anddd...tay chung hau!!!u send me the wrong fax no. la..lucky this mornigni check then hurry send to my mother before she fax..if not dunno fax go where ar!LOL..but its ok la..she fax to both anyway in case..haha..yeah!everything settled!=Dthanks so much for ur help anyway=)do take care and all the best for ur exams today and also for ur other pprs la..heez^^

anyway im like so bored now..shld have brought a book to read or sth la..sianz...

k la..i go do other things first...cya ppl!!=))

*loveS*

2008-01-29T12:42:00.000+08:00

today lesson end!=)

tmr going for camp for 2 days..but dunno wht's the plan also...mr wan dun let ms chng go say the sec.1s need help...then she so disappointed..she love camps..lol!and its adventure camp obviously its fun!haiz..if she dun go then i'll kinda like be alone..hope i can know more teachers and the stay would be enjoyable la..haiz...=)

anywya tonight gonna meet sokkin at clarke quay for dinner..feel so bad la..keep pushing back cos i busy then she keep re-scheduling and everything...haha...so sorryman..lol!ut today finally meeting her le..haha still finding it weird tt she wanna meet up with me when we not even close in sec sch..ha!well we'll see la..lol!happy tt she asked but weird also..lol!=)

today taught sec. 1A..omg!!im like teaching..and unprepared teaching!taught them on frutis and vegetables...quite ok la..at leats they got respond..but at the end they all quite sleepy le..cos even if got ppt its all in the tb de..so quite boring la..i also dun wanna talk so much cos already in the tb ma...so faster finish lor..but overall ok la..then went to sec. 3 NT class..oh man.. itsthe second time i go in and they are still the same...i went through corrections with them..didnt really talk..but some of them got copy la..well at least they copy la..then mdm zheng came in and theybecame super quiet!!oh man!gotta learn from her how she did it man!haha!cool!!and she just carry on with lessons lor..lol!the teachers here are great!

anyway...i just uploaded pics on friendster...so take a peek if u have the time..lol!!i enjoyed myself so much and i really love it!haha!wanna gooo again!!!!LOL=D
*muacks to all of u*

*loves*

2008-01-28T22:57:00.000+08:00

Hey ppl!! love my blogskin??haha i wish i were tt clever but of course i wasnt the one who made it...its some kind soul who made it for me...so nice of him right?=D

ohhh and i just received the sms..tmr my make up's coming!=)ha!so happy..must remember to go draw money..heez=)

just now went to west coast park with yani n zuzi..had great fun!took lots of pics!haha!!we went to the seaside first then we sat there and watched the sunset and talked..then we went to the playground and took lots of pics..we even climbed the pyramid..it was great fun!hah!then we went to mac to wash up..and ate at mac..i drank the whole cup of water again!which i dun usually do haha!maybe play too muc thristy le..haha!but really had fun!=D

ben chan said he wanted to call me but i was with my fren..then when i msg him can call le then he never call le haha!maybe he sleep le..or maybe he dun wanna talk le..=(..hah jk la..he not so petty ba..lol

anyway i shld be going to sec.3 level camp!!haha!but must ask dr vijaya first..but most probably shld be can go la..haha..but just admin matters...hope ill enjoy myself!haha!=))this sch's fun!!for nth i missed 3 days of lessons..then plus next week another 3 days for CNY..so cool!ha!

btw i love my new hairstyle!lol..can consider going back to the same salon ba..lol=)butttt...hope she will keep promoting the treatment again..lucky i didnt do the treatment..cos it looks just right even without the treatment if not ill waste super alot of money again!its $179 for goodness sake..how can i even think of it!LOL

me n pris were like discussing about booking a chalet during march after our attachment!then we can all go enjoy before the 3rd and final yr begins!!haha!hope we can get a chalet and hope ppl can make it!haha!wanna ask belle too..cos she also wanna go de...heez=))it'll be fun..it has been a long time since i bbq!=)yeah!=D

anyway i gtg le..sooo tired today if i dun sleep tmr also the same then i die..haha!

*loves*

p/s:i dun care if u love it of not..BUT i love my blogskin!hahahahaha!!

2008-01-27T20:28:00.000+08:00

so im writing an entry today..talking about yesterday=)

yest was incredible!!it was great!!ha!thanks to all the 3 wonderful leaders..alexis, jon jun and mervyn!they put in so much of their time into planing the 4 meetings and everything falls into place..yest was fun..we played the 'peter's walk' game...we went through all tt peter had gone through with jesus..from when jesus fed the 5000..to the jesus told peter to walk on water...and jesus renaming peter callin him 'the rock' and then when jesus washes his discipes feets..and when jesus was crucified and peter denied him 3 times...the experience was great!

we were blindfolded and led around the church from classrooms to classrooms..and finally upstairs...the 3 leaders acted part of the show 'heroes'..alexis=cheerleader...jon jun=some man who can fly and mervyn=the jap guy..heez...so funny!!and mervyn was 'shuai' can!!LOL...

really had a fun time la...well..in the end Q refers to us all...Q is made up of us...so we are given this 1 mth to make a choice..whether to commit or not...hmmm...but the timing abit of a problem..from mon-fri..diff ppl got diff programme..but on sat nights everyone is free except tt i have to go to my grandma house...haiz..so now im the prob...i dunno wht to do lei........if i stay on wont i be pulling the group down cos the only time when they are free i cant...how??hmm..i need an ans...

well thats kinda all about yest...charlene called also..and then i talked to her for quite awhile then i was super super tired!!so i had to go sleep and this morning had to wake up early...

and she came to church today!!!!ha!so happy!and everyone missed her..lol!hope she felt welcome and hope God did speak to her..and i hope she is on the road to recover=)..i just knows God works in an amazing way!=D

went for cell in the morning..visited the monkey tree in jurong...and the elephant..and the guan yin..then we went to a taoist temple and a buddhist temple...went to take a look inside at the same time understand their culture a little better...the ppl dunno we are christians and we didnt tell them..in order to avoid misunderstanding u see...hmmm...quite a fruitful experience la..i never thought we could stepped into the temple..i thought it was not allowed...learned quite abit la...thanks cell leaders=)

had a great time at worship today...and lunch of course...we were laughing and laughing and like we were the noisiest table again..lol!its just so fun being with u guys...it made my day even more.!then had fellowship comm meeting...settled some stuff...then some of them had to go to the D&D meeting...so fun!then me n minhui went to jp to get sth..then went to grandma house..and guess wht!it was raining and we lost our way!!lol..we walked 1 big round..the block was so messy..and we had difficulty finding the place at last after walking for about 20mins-half hour we found the place!haha!was so tired...=)

-->zhiqiang and team: the music and singing were great!the coordination and joining of songs were great too!!keep it up guys!=)

hmmm..haiz..gave away my GB uniform le...or rather dunno where i put le..haha!i didnt expect to go back to serve in GB again=(now i got no uniform for enrolment=( so sad.........

haiz nvm la..im sure there's a way....maybe ill get a new one??dunno also..sad....

alright gtg now..haven write my reflections for my log book...and the test ppr tt is supposed to be due this week!!!arghh!!procrastination is bad!!

*loveS*

2008-01-26T15:50:00.000+08:00

I knelt to pray but not for long, I had too much to do.
I had to hurry and get to work For bills would soon be due.

So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
And jumped up off my knees.

My Christian duty was now done
My soul could rest at ease.

All day long I had no time
To spread a word of cheer.

No time to speak of Christ to friends,
They'd laugh at me I'd fear.

No time, no time, too much to do,
That was my constant cry,

No time to give to souls in need
But at last the time, the time to die.

I went before the Lord, I came, I stood with downcast eyes.
For in his hands God held a book; It was the book of life.

God looked into his book and said
'Your name I cannot find.

I once was going to write it down...
But never found the time'

do you have time for God?or are u so caught up with the business in ur life that u forgotten about him or only brought him out on sundays?are u guilty of negligence?stop n think people of God!! through ur life if God didnt give u wht u have, now, where would u be?and wht do u have left?if he wasnt there all this while what wouldu do during times of trouble?stop n think!

He keeps me functioning each and every day.
Without Him, I will be nothing.
But, with Christ, HE strengthens me.

Phil 4:13

2008-01-26T15:41:00.000+08:00

went for GB early in the morning today..taught 8 girls some drill steps..then had to go le..time passed so fast when in pri sch GB cos they only meet for 2 hours..lol..next week again...after GB aunt beng lay send me back to church for the kids church training...the speaker is funny..his name is called rob i think..he's an australian..ha!he perform alot of tricks and taught us how to perform the tricks so we can perform it to the kids..lol...so cool!then besides tt just ppt slide and examples and stuff lor..he basically just thought us how to handle kids...around tt area la...=)

aunt beng lay send me home after tt but i went to cut hair...went to vincent-daniel....cos the hairstylist know my mother so i know its trustworthy la...the rest not too sure..but then there got sooooo many ppl...ppl can wait till they open chairs for 2 ppl to sit outside can??btw inside already got 4 person waiting...and got about 6 hairstylist chair and all filled...then most of them is dye hair, perm hair, rebond hair obviously take very long..so i went to yoke loon...waaa the layout super nice like professional..then gt 2 story de...the second story much much nicer..noone de..except some guys..then this lady keepppp asking me if i want treatment then explain alot alot alot..then in the end i told her cut first then she say ok..cut the length first..then later she ask again..then i say nvm la...just cut alreadynext time then see how lor..haha!then cut finish already..everything all 2 times shorter than usual..k la maybe not so exagerating butt the hair is soulder length..fringe is around my eyeball there..slanted fringe la....lol..in the salon is super nice la..but i come home bathe le dunno nice not..haven see yet lol!i alwyas scared after bath de..cos everythign will go back to normal..lol

tonight going for Q gonna be very fun i guess but meeting ju to go jp to buy b'day card first...heez!=)

just finished my lunch so late right?LOL...cos i waited so long to cut my hair??lol...aiya at leasti bathe le..then if wanna sleep can just go sleep hah!

k la..nth to write le..byeeeee

*loveS*

2008-01-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

today was super fun!went back to tp to be a student again..haha!nth much to contribute...cos like nto i didnt learn aything but whtever i learnt not applicable to the qn so didnt say much...maybe the next discussion ba..haha!

after tt went to tm...went to coffee bean to chat..then took lots and lots of pics!LOL..madness...and we had a date on 15 feb to celebrate v day!haha!strictly for SINGLES only!!LOL...but not sure where we going yet!heez...its gonna be romantic!and flashes will be all around again!yeaaa!!

im going pic crazy nowadays...if only i had my own cam....how i wish i had...haiz...well anyway...cant wait!!!haha!

miss u guys lotsss!!and amanda!!u look nice in skirt lorrr!!why u dun wear skirt???look so girl...niceeee!lol!

yaniii...this wed..to the beach!!kk?lol..we can go to the nearest one no prob..anyway we stay and work so near each other only..lol!=)

tmr going for GB then not singing le..going for sunday sch training instead..heez..then got Q...cant meet up with steph again=(i think she very sad lor....got so many things wanna update her about..then also must memorize memory verse..so long never memorize le=(...haiz..feel so bad=(

my mother just went for an eye operation today cos of retina dettachment....now ok le..but cannot carry heavy thing soooo ill help her wash the cloths either tonight or tmr..hee=))

alright gtg bathe!!hope jh can talk tonight..so long neevr talk to him le...haha!he good la..hand up all projects le relax le..now exams coming up..final sem!jia you ba!=D

*loves*

2008-01-25T12:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday super relax..only got 1 practical lesson and 1 sec 3 class..2 periods..then the day end le..went to the hall and saw the release of O levels results..they were like cheering for those 10 pts and below..this badge did really well!!my cousin and bro also collected their results yesterday=) my bro, L1R4=15...but he still not happy lor cos his frens did better than him ba..well but at least he had an A2 for his science i only managed to get highest a B3...lol!my cousin very sad cos of her results although she still can make it till poly...well at least u know u tried ur best..i dunno how to console ppl de so if i said sth wrong dun angry lei..just cheer up=)O level's not the end=)

found out tt most of my teachers left le...so sad..i haven got a chance to even talk to them when i collected my results lor...they all think i could do better but i did a little lower than they expected so i dun dare to talk to them..dun wanna see their disappointment...ha!then wanted to go back during CNY but some already not there le..esp..miss lim(principal), mrs chan, mr yao...etc...haiz...miss lim was my motivation to work hard to get into fairfield then she left for MOE then next is mrs chan...then she left to another sch..haiz..now i go back there for wht...but nvm la!i still love fairfield..hope i really can get in there lor..haha!

had only 1 practical class yest..so messy!lol..but quite fun la..everytime i go for 1 lesson everytime got food to eat lol!cos always got extra then teacher use for demonstration so got extra la..so i eat lor..llol!!greedy pig!^^but yest was quite relax...hee

at night went for dinenr at ghim moh...so nice!ate crab, sambal kang kong, sweet sour pork, egg omelette and deer meat...yummy!haha!

ohhhh and i remembered sth...yesterday i took out my O level slip also then i take a look and see how come my bro's slip got write the L1R4+cca=15 but mine dun have...then i see properly...actually have lor...and i got 14...lol..i go round telling ppl i got 18..obviously when they ask then i say la...then i was like 2 yrs later then i realised tt i got 14!!its like super lag laaa!!!LOL!!stupid me!!so dumb man!lol!

today going for on campus discussion...suppose to go out after tt de but in the end yani and lk cant make it...i very sad lor=(( but nvm la...haha work more imp ba..no choice^^ then amanda ask me go shopping with her...lol..i try la im not for the idea of shopping today actually but ill just go see see look look lor...later then see la...haha..

meeting yani and zuzi later at redhill..haha gotta leave soon=)

and today i bought $78 worth of make up!!it includes 1 lip stick for my mum..i bought a blusher, lip gloss and foundation..haha!!its quite good...the woman say not sold elsewhere de.ha!ill see ba..but i believe her la..she's patient and she help me find the colour tt suit me de..she seems genuine and nice..so i kinda trust her..we'll see la..and of course if u were thinking..i didnt go out of the school to buy...they came to the school's staff lounge lol!so it will be coming in next week..just nice for CNY heez...shhhhh its a secret my mum will kill me but i think she'll like the lip stick haha!=)

alright gtg now...cya!

*loveS*

2008-01-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

today another relaxed day....miss seerin on MC again...she went to pull out her wisdom tooth i think...i think it's like super painful! anyway went for 2 classes' practical lessons....the students so happy lor!lol..they made pizza bread and orange juice..mostly observed mdm Zheng's lessons...she's super organize...she knows wht to tell the students..and she finished both classes' practicals on time...its like so good..and the whole place like super clean and neat and tidy...must learn from her..lol=)practicals are funnn!!!i think when i become a teacher ill love practicals the most!!haha remind me of my sec sch days again=( i always parnter tt justin yip during sec 1 n 2...ok la he not a bad partner la..but most of the time i wash he cook=.= lol..but kinda miss the times with him too la...like although he kinda irritatingggg butttt he still brings laughter to my everyday lessons if there's pair work lor..heez...miss those days..ha!

*it's a teacher's joy to see her students happy*=)

after tt went to eat sushi with jh...waaaa...so full!!!he order so many things!!can die!!lol..then he order the smelly beans thing..then he eat abit he spit out lol!!so funny!!theni dun dare to eat haha..then the chawanmushi today not nice de..not hot de..warm only..ha!then wanted to shop de but he got work to do so go home lor..haha..but finally got to eat my sushi..satisfied le la..LOL..anyway..i saw so many nice shirts at bossini lor!!so nice can!!can wear for CNY and not very ex also lor...when i get my pay i wanna buy!!haha..super nice lei!!but of course i hope i can fit into them la=(..so depressing..haiz....nvm!!happy happy happy!!destress!!=.=

im like so tired la!!last night talked till late at night...this morning never fall asleep in the staff room very good le lor..lol..but i slept in the bus so not so bad le la..haha!!

anyway i hope my dear charlene is alright lor..sth happened and im like afraid sth happento her haiz...i msg her she never reply me..all i can do is pray for her ba..
--> charlene:
dun worry girl!i know u have ur reasons for not replying me..if u need me ill be there for u kk?just call me up alright?no matter how late it is just call me if u need someone..it's ok de=)*love ya*
well hope she gets to see this cos i haven had the chance to tellher about my blog yet..lol

my mother nagging again...well not exactly nagging..but she always talk like as if i treat my bro and sis very bad!!i just hate being the eldest la!!its so hard to be the eldest in this family lor!!i have to give in to everything!!!it's so unfair!!when i show love to my sis they dun even care...when i bad to them then they start making so much noise...fine la...born me out before them for wht...born me out later then dun need all this trouble already wht.........i just hate it!!they dun even care about me anymore..im like totally left on my own...so pathetic...just cos im old already doesnt mean i dun need anymore love wht...so unfair!wht for i worry so much for this family..i think im just doing sth which they wont be grateful about anyway so wht for bother so much.....im so irritated!!

i have been so easily irritated lately...and nth has ever been able to surpress this irritation!haiz..im like dying under my own hands can??im like...i dunno la!!arghhhh!!!

stupid stupid stupid!!=(

*loveS*

2008-01-22T21:09:00.000+08:00

i know we aren't meant to be and i know this will result since a long time ago...but i dun wish to see wht im seeing or assuming now..

whether there is love or not..it still hurts a little cos its within a short time tt someone new came into ur life...

am i being naive?was i cheated?or all this while u r just waiting for me to make the decision to make me feel like a bad person and make me feel guilty while u can carrying living ur life as if nth happened and as if its my fault tt let u down?

if this is wht has been happening all this while..im sad..disappointed...i feel like im a fool...being led by emotions...and i hate tt kinda feelings....i feel stupid..like its a one-sided thing all this while..

oh well..it has ended and i shan't think about it anymore..i hate to admit it but i guess my deduction is 90% right ba...

*trying hard to surpress the hatred tt is rising up in me*

*loves*

2008-01-22T12:47:00.000+08:00

Oh man!today is scary k! my teacher is on MC then she have a class today so she asked if i could take over her to teach her class..its actually just to do group work on 'methods of cooking' and present...it was terrible man..k la not tt bad to the extend everything dun listen to me la..they did do their work..but some were playing with phones..then some arguing talking so loudly..at first is like k la i talk nicely and stuff..then after tt when finish already 1 group by 1 group went up to present...then noone listening..then the rest of the groups also doing their own things dun even wanna listen..then they present finish free period la..also nth to do le..haiz...then they got 1 free period lor...then its like so sianz lor..how to be teacher like tt..crazy sia...k la maybe i only attachment dun have much authority also...then just leave it lor..haiz..pls God help me to get a good good school kk?lol!aiya..anyway its over le..overall not tt bad...at least got finish wht was expected today lor...heez~

vocalist this sunday!!yea!haha i love singing during combined...love singing!although i know i dun have a very nice voice but i just love to sing la..LOL!!esp the hymns...cos dun need so complicated just sing accordingly can le..haha!yeaa!!=D

dunno why ar..today so tired again lei..like feel like sleeping le..dun feel like going home later..so sianz..haha..hmm feel like eating sushi!!!but lot 1 de close down le..must go cine..but so tired..shld i go not..but also noone to accompany me how to go?eat alone meh...LOL!!haiz..nvm la..go home and slack anyway sis coming home late so can slack alone..lol..

3 more days to discussion!!yea!can see those ppl i missed le!!hhaa!!k i feel energized now..lol!hope yani's eyes has recovered...if not ill be like so sad...cos cant see her=(..lol..get well soon girl!=)

yesterday 9pm show last episode..so dumb man the ending!!!dun even know if tt guy tt kill kaijie is hired de or just a normal robber...super lame!then in the end he like tt die..abit stupid lor!he do so many things then die like tt..like for no rhyme or reason just suddenly die??then tt jin long go kill himself..so weird lor this show..and tt bak kut girl quite poor thing la..for nth get killed lol!but she clever hide the slip of ppr in her clothes..haha!!yes!i love felicia chin's character in the show..she super cool..so daring so rich so loyal..haha..and her clothes all nicenice de..lol..ok why am i talking about this?already over!=P

k i ran out of things to write...today is another boring and not so good day haha!i feel tt maybe im too dependent tt's why...haha..well gtg

*loves*

p/s: today entry quite boring..dun bother reading haha!

2008-01-21T17:41:00.000+08:00

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Romans 12:2

2008-01-21T17:22:00.000+08:00

woahhh..i love mondays!!lol..on mondays i only have 1 class..3 lessons and its sec.1..so nice!=) like super relax!hahahaha!!no more monday bluuueess=D

this few days im addicted to this 3 songs ' you do all things well' , ' hosanna' and ' with all i am'. its like i listen to it again and again..dunno why also just love it alot alott!!heez^^

today nth much to write also la..nth much happened also...

ohhhh...i bought a skipping rope!!and guess wht's it for??lol obviously to exercise la..haha and i did skip for 15mins....but i doubt its gonna make much diff yet ba..lol...yea man i need time..you can do it!!haha!practiced my tamborine just now....and i forgot my steps??so i anyhow mix and match and i drew the steps but i dunno how to read my drawing..oh man!!im in for trouble..lol..tt's why trying to ask pris if can help me with it this sat=P hope she's free..hah!hope im able to learn quickly so i dun take up much of her time haha!=)

hmm wht else....yes!!!this fri im meeting all my CST peeps!!yea!!!i missed all of them lots!!!then after tt we going for dinner!either vivo or essential brew i guess..dun feel like going so crowded places...so hot n stuffy on weekends some more after work so tiring le...haha!amanda!!!!go vivo or essential brew kk??pls pls pls..pretty pls^^

but if im occupied on sat and fri night then when am i gonna meet steph?hmm...ill try to ask her out on thurs?hope she can make it la...if not we wont meet again...i got so much to update her!=)i think i better write down in case i forget heez^^

anyway gtg now..

*loves*

2008-01-20T16:49:00.000+08:00

today is such a wonderful and fun day!!haha!!everyday is anyway lol!!i slept super early last night cos i was super tired lol!ha!surprising yea..didnt talk lei..lol..trying to not make it a habit man haha!anyway was still late for service today and had to sit in front so paiseh..lol..but well at least i did pay attention to the sermon and took a great step forward=)

i send a msg to him to say tt i wanna break..and why??its cos our r.s isnt growing at all..its stagnant..i dunno how to continue..seriously..and most importantly God is not the centre so i just thought tt we shld break and give each other some time..well he didnt reply..but i did told him tt i wanna break so it's considered right?i dunno how to ask him to reply but ill just leave him alone for now ba..he must be like hating me now la..but i know i made the right choice..heartpain but haiz..well to gain sth i have to give up sth and i believe my gain is worth more than anything else=)all i can say is sorry for the hurt, i know im selfish but we have to move on......

anyway went for cell..the cell was kinda noisy although we did do our work but im like guilty myself cos me n ju playing with our hair while listening to them..and mervyn was quite discouraged and i felt real bad about it man..haiz...sorry merv.=(

after tt went for lunch...we laughed like crazy talked alot and stuff till me n hui wen were late for the v day meeting lol..but well we did come out with some stuff and will be writing another proposal later=) after tt we talked and laughed again as usual..lol..then ju put make up for me!!!!LOL i feel tt its quite nice lor..but im not used to the look la..and my eyes too small le!LOL...thanks anyway ju ill put the photos on friendster!haha!!=)

then i had to go home le..went home with pei ern, jh and josel....they went to IMM i went home..in the bus we talked quite alot..haha..quite fun also..lol=)

alright today's sunday and tmr's the start of a new week!!LOLweek 4...6 more weeks to go for attachment..gonna miss my teachers butttt ill rather not start working permanently so early...study first better lol!!yeaa!!i can see the cst peeps this fri!!cant wait!

ha!well anyway thank God for the sermon today it gave me lots of things in return for my attention given..i love u God!*muackz*

*loves*

2008-01-19T18:35:00.000+08:00

yoz ppl!!

today was a great day man!!haha!!went to Q meeting...we went to some kinda place where old ppl of the block hang out..dunno wht its called but yea where those old folks hang out..sing karaoke...have some kinda lessons and stuff lor..like gathering de la..today is their open house so we went there to help hah!so fun!!had games, comp, food, performance..haha..its like a self-organise mini fun fair..haha!!so fun man!!hmm..only mervyn, jonjnr, alexis, ju, me, isaac, clifford and nat went...but we had great fun la!!haha!took lotsa pics not of us but of the whole event la..haha..actually they wanted to go IMM for debrief but me n ju had to leave so we left..hah!=D

anyway..rejected belle about the slimming thing le..i just dun think its a suitable kinda thing for me la..haha im tt kinda person no discipline to exercise or control my diet so in the end also go back to sq 1 so its like waste $99 lol..nvm la..ill try to find a way to lose extras??haha well my cousin has agreed to help me..=P jia you xiufeng!you can do it!LOL=.=

this morning started off bad but it got better during the day haha!this mornign i was sleeping and cos i talkingon the phone last night i left the phone near my bed...then when the phone rang thismorning about 6 plus obviously i had to pick up cos i had the phone..then its my grandmother asking if we were going over for dinner tongiht...then say already i put down..about an hour later which is like 7 plus..my sis called ask me do this do tt..wht close window its raining..open the washing machine and hang the clothes..then i was like so irritated la!then put down already..next my uncle called...about 8...then put down already i wanted to go back to sleep...my father's leg cramped verybadly and my mother was not home so i had to go look obviously...then he said dun need to help but he's like in super bad pain!!and his leg cramped for about 10mins kk???can u imagine....we leg cramp a little bit only like scream like crazy and ours only last like wht..1 min??his is like close to 10 mins???and he old already lor!!its like wth?? then i prayed but God DIDNT ans my prayer..i admit i was kinda pissed at first but then..i cooled down after jh talked to me ba..haiz..

u know whenu r angry u can be quite mean..im really sorry Lord for everything..pls forgive me!=(..sorry....

alright..now waiting for my parents to come home so we can go to my grandma's house....still have to write my reflective journal!!its the endof the week!!=D

*loves*

2008-01-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

yea!!thank God its friday!!LOL so sleepy throughout the week lor..haha..then so tired tt i fell asleep while doing the ppt just now lol..then suddenly i wake up..so paiseh..lol!!then while waiting for my teacher i fell asleep on the table..lol..i think so far im the only teacher tt fell asleep in the staff room while other teachers got so many things to do man!LOL...haha but the teachers are nice la..they never say like wht i very lazy and stuff lol..they just do their own stuff..they are just super nice!!haha!

anyway went to visit debra with the dance ppl today then watched the second last episode of the 9pm show..super fun lor..like all gather and watch tv lol!!then like we make comments and stuff then talk about our lives..blablabla..lol..so fun!!it feels so great to have relaxing gatherings like this..i just realized tt 3/4 of my time spent with church frens..be it, dance, Q, meeting up with angeline, jh, steph or even cell..its like the time spent is so great haha!!love it!and i thank God for the chance!=))

haha!belle asked me about some slimming thing..3 sessions=$99..good deal right???she say her frens went before and it worked...omg..like its so tempting lor!but i asking around to see if i shld go cos its like im in a dilemma..its a good deal but sure got the cons de ma..lol..but i dunno lei..lol...everyone diff opinion lol..

dun feel like writing le..so tired!!tmr going for Q meeting..lol!so fun!haha!

anything else ill fill in tmr if im not so tired.lol

*loves*

2008-01-17T22:53:00.000+08:00

its the end of the day..im kinda tired but not so tired..haha..going to visit debra tmr=)meeting the dance ppl for lunch..

stayed till 4 plus in school today trying to finish up setting the test pprs..haha learnt sth new again!yea!..miss seerin is super good..she saw me stay back so late..she tell me dun stay back so late and ask me go home early..lol..how nice..love her again!LOL

miss my CST peeps!er...here i go again..haha!

i have decided to type an e-mail..i have decided the recipient just tt i dunno the content..so dumb.

well ill think about it and i hope God will help me solve things now...

wanted to go to the beach today but noone to accompany me..love the quiet breeze=P

anyway nth much to write today...feeling neutral..ha!if u get wht i mean..

k la..gtg lle..nitez=P

*loves*

2008-01-17T07:43:00.000+08:00

this morning was a super bad rush..im like perspiring till now man!!haiz..now just finish morning assembly...

i slept at about 3 last night...then woke up at 6.20...then as usual i have trouble deciding on wht to wear(not tt i had alot of clothes to begin with but just the combination part)..and then packing my stuff..and in the end left house at like 6.35...take bus confirm late..so i took a cab and at the same time my sis was late too so send her to school..then the stupid taxi driver go take the super long way!he went to take the 196 way...if go by the 106 way it would be like much faster lor!!wa lao..then at first wanna ask him send me to queenstown also but i think ar..forget it lor..later he go 1 big round again then waste money la!!in the end must pay like $7..so waste money man!!

then after tt took bus 33 from fairfield there..thennnnn...i thought it would stop after dawson place..in the end went all the way to red hil mrt...wth..then had to take a bus back..and it was like already 7.15..bell rings at 7.2o..and its quite a few mins walk in...so i had to rush..i walk at like say...about 1km/min kind..lol..then when i reached just nice bell ring..but i had to put down my bag so ran upstairs put my bag then went down for assembly..then i was perspiring like crazy like water fountain like tt!!haiz..luckily i got wet tissue..green tea flavour..ha!!

anyway another thing is so irritating..my house ppt is 2007 then sch ppt is dunno when one..now i do the ppt le cannot even open!!haz...then have to do all over again!!this is super irritating can!!i think i decided to just go home copy somewhere then come sch paste..if tt could be done tt is......irritating!!!!

anyway finally its the end..but i hope its not the start of another nightmare...love is all but just a word..nth actually comes our from it la...so whtever it is..just forget it.haiz.depressing actually..but im already frozen for the moment..so well we'll just wait...still got another prob haven settle..settle le then say ba..haiz..r.s are nth but trouble...huge and irritating trouble..tt's not the way it is suppose to be in God's eyes i guess...in God's eyes love is the greatest of all...but for me..not time yet ba i suppose...cos love isnt the greatest at this point of time..well maybe family and frens love but not r.s love??who knows..lol!!anyway im ever-changing la..so noone will ever get to know the real me..scary right...so frens better careful..haha!!

anyway i gtg le...update again tonight ba if i got the time..=D

*loves*

p/s: burnt my hand at pizza hut yest now there's a mark on my hand...pizza hut trademark i guess!LOL..lame=.=

2008-01-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

today quite relax..only got 2 classes=6 periods of lessons..haha!went to observe sec.1 classes today..not too bad..miss zheng bought sweets so they were like super hyper..answering the qns and stuff lol!but of course still got some still talk among themselves..sleeping and stuff la...haha!but well at least 3/4 of the class were listening..lol i should try tt method too when i teaching in week 5 or 6...lol...teaching quite fun lor..haha!see diff kind of pupils..so cute!=) missing my sec sch days now..haiz...shld have treasured it even more haha!oh man!u see wht attachment has done to me..there i go again LOL

was like pre pms-ing again...irritated like the whole afternoon...dunno wht's the problem with me man...ha!luckily i kept quiet till i cooled down if not another war's gonna start...went to eat pizza hut...ate the curry baked rice..not nice one..to me la..haha...and honey roasted wings and sweet and spicy drumlets!=)

see la wanted to go jog but i so tired and just ate then like slack again...if this goes on ill never gonna lose the extras then im gonna die of heart attack or sth when all the extras clogs my arteries and ill die a horrible death oh man!i better go choose my coffin soon....a white one will do..lol!!with princess stickers too..and of course a tiara on top of the coffin would be not a bad idea and a ribbon tied around so it would look like a gift to God..how cool!LOL...stupid=.=

got work to do today=)finally i got work to do!the teacher is super nice really!u gotta believe me im not trying to make u ppl jealous but.;.she's super nice...im just loving her and the other teachers more n more each day lol!*muackz* to all of them!

of course still missing my CST peeps..i know i've already said this a million times but i wont stop tilli see them!!haha!*muackz* to all of u too!!=D

alright gtg do my stuff now...heez..CST peeps jia you orh!!!=D

*loves*

2008-01-15T19:14:00.000+08:00

im pms-ing or rather going to pms...ill get pissed easily..yes temper can be controlled butttt stilllll....i have to admit i've been rather short-tempered recently...maybe due to the excess weight tt im gaining back and due to the coming of the pms...so just bear with it..whoever tt is around me for this period of time..especially those tt are my closer frens..haiz.

even my words are less colourful now...

*loves*

2008-01-15T18:52:00.000+08:00

seriously u dun need to tell me whether u all like or not and i also dun have to tell u all whether i like or not..its my business so just stay out of it!

the more u dun like the more ill do it...who cares anyway..i dun!

talking behind ppl's back and hiding it from me isnt gonna work..too late!

time and again..things repeats itself...how evil!

i repeat. stay out of my business from now on..i dun need u to care!

2008-01-15T16:43:00.000+08:00

LOL!!i fell asleep in the staff room while waiting for my teacher to brief me sth...lol..and then she had to say sorry for waking me up..this is like so bad la!i suppose to say sorry can..LOL..i just love her!haha!and the other F&N teachers..lol!they are like so friendly and always smiling and joking haha!i found out tt got another teacher also CST batch de..so cool la!LOL..im really super lucky and really thank God i went to this school haha! im gonna teach 1 lesson in 2 weeks time..;haha!hope its not tt bad...i think it'll be ok la...they are super nice ha!=D

today abit sianz lor..wanna go jog de but then raining..waa the pigs can fly right??i go jogging??i gotta be kidding!!LOL haha but yea..there's always a starting point and i hope i dun end on the same day..lol!but cant go jogging so do cycling at home lor..haha!

bathed my guinea pig today!so cute!now she's clean ha!but i think tonight she dirty again one la..haha!

poor amanda!she's like super stress with her work..haiz..jia you kk?ill be here if u need my help girl!=D

hope can meet up with u girls soon...next week next week..haha on campus discussion..after tt we will go eat dinner and chat till next morning!haha!no la..kidding..lol!but really hope we can go dinner on tt day..haha love to hear u girls tell ur stories heez=P

dance..i haven practice my dance and i kinda forgotten and tamborines at home is noisy..how..haiz..

anyway...im super fat and i hate it!haiz..someone help..im like dying..so depressing!=( shld have listen to my mum from the beginning..haiz

and a shocking news!my phone bill is like $82.50!!!!break my record can!!!omg~!this is crazy!close to a hundred bucks on phone bill!!waste my money man!!haiz...depressing...hope 28th quickly come lol!there goes my plan about saving..when i save on food the bill comes...so idiot!

k la..gtg..cya ppl!

*loves*

*nEvEr LeT mE gO*

THANSKGIVING!~

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